2009,The Memories... 2010 The Challenges are coming.

Dania

She is officially 2 years old when we were in Tokyo, Japan. She started walking at 22 months old on Valentine's Day.The Disneyland trip is some sort of birthday gift to her although it was actually free entrance for kids below 4 years old.hehe.She is now wearing correction Foot Abduction Shoes; Mitchell shoes at least 9 hours per day.Actually it supposed to be at least 12 hours per day but we make it to minimum 9 hours or more.She knows how to count from 1-10 (both English & Malay), alphabet but still sounded 'pelat'ly..knows some shape, colours by claiming puprple is Barney,yellow is BJ color, red is flower colour, green is Baby Bop color and so on etc..penat ajar but she make it as a short cut..ohh yaa she is love with animals and recognised them all..

She had her 1st baju kebaya during raya, and this raya we only bought her 1 baju kurung + 2 pairs of normal clothing.Oh ya and a dress from Bangkok trip (in August) and the dress is no longer fit her in December. In December, she is weighted 15.5kg and 96cm.

What else ya? She is still adorable, matured and my only princess..I love her so much..:)

My other half

Still the same.Quiet but love and care us very much.Still addicted to TV-Series, football partcularly EPL & ManUtd, MP3, Bejewelled etc. Bought Wii, Digital Frame, Nikon D90, Photo Printer and a lot more.I really don't know whether he really enjoyed his current attachment.But I hate when he has to go work silently at 9pm and back during Subuh.It is not I hate to sleep alone but I hate to lie to Dania that his abah is going for Allahuakbar (to surau) or Abah pegi yak or Abah downstairs..recently she corrected me..Mama, Abah go work lah..:)..adusss..I hate when he has to travel but I love him more when he bought me handbags and many more..hahaha..sungguh mata duitan..

Myself

On my health, it was not really a good year as I'm expecting tumor-free so that I'm able to get pregnant again (which I did)...

On my career, nothing much has changed.New boss is not so great as he is next to Japanese bosses. Preferred the previous one, matures and very decisive.But looking forward for 2010 new management as it would be more challenging.

On relationship, very good relationship with other half. We did a lot of travel this year and we can compromise a lot of things. Things can be discussed and negotiated.We have registered for Haj, insyallah we will be going together.But I hate when he come home late.Anyhow I love all the gifts..:D

On financial,not so great but I managed to save 1/4 of the monthly salary.Memang kalau dalam ASB tuh in and out frequently, but managed to secure a lot in my Tabung Haji. Still have my ESOS (RM3.33/lot) and do not know when to exercise as 2008 tax is unforgettable.RM10k babe!!!!Nasib ada zakat relief..perghssss..

My hope in 2010

I want to fight with this tumor to the end, insya allah..

I want to spend more time with Dania.This year we will have her birthday party at home, yes at home although our home is still at mess..:D

I want my husband to take a lot of photos of me & Dania..so that she won't forget me when I'm no longer around. ehemm I hope he will not forget me too..:D

I will go home as early as 5.30pm every working day..:

Thank you 2009 and welcome 2010, a long journey with hope and white dreams..

Ka-chingggg

The letter is out..Tun hand it to me once I got back from SDMC. Despite of slow units of sales, we managed to get as same amount as last year..alhamdullilah..Minus zakat, and advance salary (for raya) .. what only left is about 65%..heh..:D

Our anniversary is coming, and I'm buying him an Ipod Classic as he has mentioned to me once..belum order online lagik bcoz tgh pikir what to engrave on it..I've asked Dania what she wants and I gave her 2 options : a piano or a bicycle, heh, she told me she wants a bicycle.So this weekend I'm going to find her a new bike, and just now we bought her that 'pinano' and wrap it as a gift..:D..yeah she got both..


For myself, this handbag so tempting. Coach is doing its clearance sale but not this one..arghh..anyone going to USA?

That's all for my spending...the rest will be kept for the rainy days..:D
Hv a good weekend!!

The Most Happening Month of 2009

My life rocks!!
If I were to vote, this month is the most exciting month of 2009. We went to Bukit Merah LakeTown at early month.We went to the Orang Utan Island, Eco Park, Chair lift, and lastly the water park. We had so much fun, Dania got sun burn and most of all we had good vocation..hehe

Then on 9th, I'm visiting my sjmc gynea (my next delivery will be in sjmc mind you since I have big history in this hospital) and it is confirmed that i'm truly positive and abortion need to be done and I'm truly ready by fasting since midnite but Dr Lee told me all OT are full.Then they arranged for emergency admission for me on the following day.

The next day, I had delivered my 4th angel, my 5th pregnancy and Dania's other siblings.When I got home (discharged on the same day), I told Dania baby is no longer in my tummy, and I also inform her, she is now a kakak. She responded with smile.Usually when we told them there is a baby inside mama's tummy, she touched my tummy she will said, 'baby tido'..now she asked me to cover my tummy, malu lah she said..In truth, the meningioma (the type of tumor that I've owned) will get bigger when the pregnancy goes along...:)

So, my radiosurgery will be rescheduled as Dr Lee told me at least I need to wait for 1 week and a half before the surgery can be done and he has informed Dr Kumar on my updates. That is the advantage doing all your health check in one roof but the disadvantage is the cost is too much.I hate to reschedule this arrangement coz I think I can't wait any longer.I'm mentally ready altho my physical is not.I don't think I want anybody advice on this.I just want to get over this thing as early as I can so that I can just move on.

I ate a lot of ginger, black pepper and ikan haruan these couple of days.This time I do my own confinement coz my mum is not knowing what is happening and what will happen after this.She already had too much in her plate and I would rather confine myself without her.

My boss told me if it is happen to her, and her mum knows what had happened she would probably nagging non-stop of not using precautions.For me, this things happens for a reason , and as audience we should not rub some salt in a wound.Cukup2 lah dengan apa yang org tuh hadapi, takyah ler nak tambah2...

I'm a person yang tak perlu pulak org bagi kata2 azimat ker semangat ker bcoz I know how to find my soul and strength.Kalau org bagi nasihat lagik lerr will make me weaker.I need to stay positive with friends who also can think positive. huh emo sikit malam ni..hehe

Eh Dania dah jadik kakak..:)

It is not the end of the world..

In life, things are unpredictable..one second you can be happy & laugh, another second you might be cry in tears..

When somethings hit you badly, we got angry and we cursed, we break down & cried and some people commit suicide...on the road pon, if somebody did not give signals for turning, drive like a kura-kura or drive like a F1 driver pon, we'll cursed madly..hehe..

Ironically, when my gynea diagnosed my miscarriages are due to incompetent cervix, I did not cried..when seeing Dania's clubfeet at the first time also, I was puzzled but I did not complaint..Then I was diagnosed with brain tumor and need a emergency surgery,I'm still okay and receptive..

Today when entered Dr Kumar's room, I've told him that I've read the radiologist summary and I knew that there is recurrence..He just smiled but he told me 'i've told u so'...He explained my situation he shows us the brain diagram and where is the tumor located..a ah Dania was there too..betul kata Kak Mas, usually when the mummy is sick, the children will be more matured from their age..She sat still, and listened to our conversation..

The tumor is confirmed slightly growing and it grows at the same location..it grows on the blood vein..The radio surgery may not kill the tumor totally, but it helps to stop and reduce it from growing..since the tumor is still small, the radiation is strong enough to focus on the tumor..Surgery is not possible to remove the tumor since it may grow back unless the blood vein is cut and re-attach..and the patient may get stroke..

So the best option is to opt for radiation and after than I'll be monitored every 6 months with MRI..If another 3-4 years the tumor is not growing after the radiation, it can be confirmed that the tumor is no longer grows..With latest technology in radio surgery, it may not need an equipment to make ur head stay still for the laser shoot..but then the hardware & software is not yet arrived at SJMC ..then if that case, my head will drilled with some paku to make my head stay still..tapi he asked me to remind him next Monday to confirm...aku jugak yg kene remind ker? adusss..Tentatively the radiosurgery will be on 17th Dec..

Both Doctors, Dr Kumar & Dr Zurin told me that the cause of brain tumor is unknown..it not caused of what u've hv eaten. ur lifestyle or whatever..betul jugak tuh takkan 3 months old baby pon ada brain tumor..so nasib2 lah..but I feel so blessed having this illness..

Bosan lah citer pasal brain tumor ni....since yesterday, I heard Dania nanyi 'aku cintaaaa' tapi macam dengar tak dengar..Today she got 2 microphones from McD Happy Meal and she can't stop using the mic and sang all the nursery rhymes...and she happily sang 'Aku Cintaaaa...' depan her Abah..and Abah said, 'lagu apa Dania nanyi ni, abah tak ajar pon..sapa ajar Dania nanyi lagu ni..and Dania replied 'Aisyah'...(Aisyah is one of her friend at nursery)..macam2 budak sekarang ni..:)

Hidup ku sungguh meriah...

Despite of knowing my repeat MRI was on the following day after KT trip, it never stops me to enjoy myself..The trip indeed was a good one, full of fun but it's too short..

We went to Taman Tamadun Islam, Masjid Kristal, Pasar Payang, ICT at Teluk Ketapang, Kg Losong, and I'm so rajin to join KT branch morning meeting..:)..Dania had her swimming action at the hotel, and left some mark after 2x jatuh at Taman Tamadun Islam..

So, Next trip is to Bukit Merah Lake Town Resort...:)

I had my repeat MRI last Monday, and did not sibuk to baca the radiologist remark until just now.I heard Kak Jamiliah told me the summary will be shared during my consultancy with Dr Kumar.Tapi they gv me the summary for early preparation agaknye..:)

It says a lot of things.Ada measurement which I believe the rumor size...1.8x1.5x1cm..
But yg bestnye it also states that 'left occipital region lesion possible recurrence of meningioma.'
The last 4 words mmg faham..
Hmm..so i guess i should not wait any longer and I will opt for radiation therapy.
Meningioma itu adalah salah satu type benign tumor.Brain tumor ni ada more than 120 types..Check out this sites.

I have a lot of things to do and to think..
While I'm in hospital nanti, sila jenguk2 Dania eh?

My 3 angels

Hari ini I learn something precious from Kak Emmy..
It was hard to learn that one of my colleagues in my office and she is so close to me, had lost long waiting baby due to misabortion..but she looks okay and the lab test result shows that she had virus infection in her blood that caused the fetus stop growing.
Kak Emmy told her that there would be an angel waiting for her in heaven..

Today, Kak Emmy shows me one of the hadis which said

'Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda: “tidaklah dua orang muslim (suami isteri) yg ditimpa kematian 3 orang anaknya yg belum baligh kecuali Allah memasukkan kedua nya kedalam syurgaNya dgn keutamaan dan rahmatNya.” Lebih lanjut rasulullah S.A.W bersabda, “Dan mereka berada di depan pintu dari pintu2 syurga, kmdn dikatakan kpd mereka: ‘masuklah kalian ke dlm syurga.’ Mereka menjawab: ‘kami tidak akan masuk hingga kedua orang tua kami datang.’ Lalu dikatakan kpd mereka: ‘masuklah kaloan semua ke dlm syurga bersama bapa dan ibu kalian dgn keutamaan Allah dan rahmatNya.” (riwayat an-nasa’ie dan al-baihaqi)

Dari Abu Said Al-Khudri, Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda: “wanita mana saja yg ditimpa kematian 3 orang anaknya menjadikannya sbg tabir penghalang baginya masuk ke dlm neraka. Seorang wanita bertanya, ‘bagaimana pula dgn 2 org anak?’ Baginda S.A.W menjawab, ‘Juga dua orang anak.’ (Riwayat bukhari, muslim dan al-baihaqi)...'

It really reminds me of my 3 angels..I still remember their face esp the last two who were almost completed foetus..I'm so lucky I got to see all of them during my sleep after went out from 10 hours surgery..they are so cheerful to see me but they do not want me to come close to them..The place is so white, with white flowers, white rivers and fountains..it is so beautiful place, so peaceful and calming..and I still can feel tears coming from my eyes..

I hope I will not forget about them..I will let Dania know about their existence in our lives..I knew that since Dania arrival, I was too busy with my daily routine until I forgotten and passed their departure day..I know they are waiting for me up there and I hope they will patiently wait for us..

My 3 angels, Insya Allah..we will meet again as a family..and I miss you too..:)

This is It...

I've never been his fan when he is still alive..
But I was grown up with his songs, his life stories, controversies and all..
I adore his music & video clips but shame on me, I do not own any of his album..
I only know the chorus when come to his lyrics..
Most importantly I never believed on his sex scandal..
I know that he was used by greedy people who wants his money and share his fame..

Today, I was so excited to watch ThiS iS iT movie..a movie dedicates to MJ's fan..managed to book the movie a week before it's opening..
Wowwww, I was amazed with his passion towards giving his best for his fan although it just a rehearsal..
He is so soft spoken and surrounded with peoples who love to work with him..
Agreed with his crew that he is perfectionist and know what he wants..
He went to dancer's audition, pick his main dancers and inspires his crews to work together and show their best talent...
He is so humble and he let everyone on the stage show their best talent and let them steal the spot light..
He know what he wants and he know his music, & the rhythm so well..
I can feel the heat of his dance, his tunes and his spirits..
But then again, when u look at him he was so skinny, sometimes ypu would noticed that he lost his breathe..

Go watch MJ movie..It just like watching a concert..a concert that you won't believed that MJ is no longer with us..

Michael, may u rest in peace..and I want to borrow ur usual quotes; 'God Bless you'..:)

Pokok duit-duit

I think i need to plan pokok duit-duit so that when I've problem with money, I can always petik the daun..:) haha just kidding..

It starts with our tv gabak..rosak during watching Raya show..then our autogate....the left side of gate motor need to be replaced..then,one of our fridge shelf dah nak pecah..itu okay lah since I managed to order the replacement, then ultimately the pink lenova totally hancus when Dania fell down and accidentally sat on it..:)


What can I say? hmm..Yesterday I got myself a replacement of the broken netbook, another pink but this time it's HP mini..today our autogate got fixed, we changed both left and right motor..after that we've joined my other half to get a replacement of the tv gabak..it takes for a month for him to decide whether there would be a replacement or repair would be just fine..rasanya tv gabak tuh merajuk sebab we all selalu berangan nak beli LCD tv or Plasma tv..:)upcoming match with Liverpool would be so much fun with the slimmer tv..hehe...
Within 2 days, more than 5 grant has gone...bonus pon belum tentu dapat dah belanja sakan...plan nak gi GC next year ditangguhkan lah kot..

Thank you to my 15' tv (wedding's gift), your understanding and cooperation are highly appreciated. Eh not to forgot lah, Dania's dvd also rosak..hmm..later eh ganti..laptop n tv kecik kan ada..:)

I should say alhamdullilah, Allah permudahkan the replacement..:)

Penatnye raya..

how was ur raya?

I've drafted an entry to describe my raya..tapi it is too lengthy..so this is the summary..

Our raya was fun..Dania had her 'dapat lima'..she accept duit raya then she throw away or she take out the money and give it to me..'mama, ponya?'..she is too small to understand..went to Selayang (mlm raya) - Kemuning - Ampangan - Pulai - Gombak - PH - Selayang ..the list goes on and on..Dania got her first Baju Kebaya from her uncle..


I've registered my Haj with TH..our turn will be on year 2027 and I will be 50 when my turns come..hidup lagik ker time tuh?..hmm..insya allah maybe I will appeal to make it earlier..

what else? oh ya i've initiated PoTLuck for my non-muslim friends...the turn up was so over-whelming..and the food was so delicious..I've made Mak Tok Laksa Johor (my best friend's granny) and the Japanese bosses love it and tak cukop..:(..aku rasa mmg kene bebtul ikut resepi maktok kalau nak sedap..and not to forget 'dengan kasih sayang'..:)

For the 1st time after 8 years working in Toyota, I've celebrated my birthday with my friends in office.Another cake cutting during PotLuck and luncheon on that day itself.

Open houses are everywhere..puasa sebulan so open houses pon sebulan..:) yesterday itself pon i went to 4 houses (Kuang - Subang Permai - Rawang - TTDI)..yang kat Nilai tuh memang x sempat..


Oh ya My chairman is back for good..picked her up on 30th Sep night..and she spent about 6 days at my house just to ulang-alik to Putrajaya to get her posting..finally she decided to pick Sains Rembau as her next school..

During her day at PH, I managed to influence her to buy Vios Jimat..it was so amazing that I managed to get the stock within few hours of hunting (fyi : the car is 2.5 months waiting period)..she signed order on the next day, paid deposit..the next day she went to her old school to get her pay slip and fax to the financier..i called my associates in the bank & explained her situation bla bla bla and next few hours the loan got approved..paid another balance of downpayment..and tadaaa..she got the car within 5 working days...:)..yelah pon dah almost 4 years pon test drive..:)

Ok chairman, pls show up your brand new car..:)..

Syawal

Ramadhan is gone..

Finally, it's here..

SeLaMaT HarI RaYa AiDiLFiTrI & MaaF Zahir BaTiN, kepada semua kawan2 jauh dan dekat, kenalan2 dari clubfoot blog, dan my blog readers...


-Ina, Imran & D. Insyirah

Syawal datang lagi..

At personal note, this Ramadhan is better than previous one..I still didn't managed to do any terawih since Dania arrival but I managed to tadarus..If I'm still breathing for the next Ramadhan, I will definitely improve my tajwid and try to qatam..Insya-Allah..

The last week ramadhan was very hectic week for me..new panel bankers did not met our expectation on following our benchmark. I had to re-coach, and retrain their IT specialist & also my business associates on loan disbursement through HP Link Up. We had brainstorming session for 2010 Business Plan. My HOD announced reshuffling within our Division. Again he offered me the ,hot seat' but I told him that I need to stress free and I want to live longer..hehe..Frankly at this moment, I don't need any promotion but salary adjustment would helps..:)

Some of my friends will get their job rotation and most likely I would do the same task. Panjang jodoh aku dengan bankers ni..:(

I believed some of you already started packing for balik kampung...hehe

This week, I've received 5 beautiful hampers from my bankers & our dealers..received few more Raya cards..a lot of festive emails ..not inclusive of sms which I believed will start very very soon..I managed to send my car to service through walk-in....I've collected my Raya cookies, angpow envelopes, and hubby finally bought his baju melayu..washed baju raya..tiring eh??

Still sad, Ramadhan is leaving..

The 3rd week of Ramadhan..

aduss..cepatnye masa berlalu..

Apsal ek this year I did not receive any hampers from my bankers? hahaha..No iftar invitation pon..semua merajuk..:p

Oh ye, we got advance bonus, tak banyak but boleh lah..:) Bukan nak buat kenduri pon kan for this raya..enough for raya groceries, duit raya and makan-makan..:)

Dania woke up for Sahur few times...tapi dia bukan nak makan but nak tengok tv..

We solved one KFC picture puzzle for 1st time as family..Dania supposed to get Sponge Bob from Chicky Meal but stock dah habis..so she is so excited to do this puzzle...alahai bukan pandai pon..tapi bile puzzle dah siap, siap baring atas puzzle..lerr

We had iftar at IOI Mall, Subang Parade, Kemuning, merata..Done with our Raya groceries shopping at Carrefour..what else?.. I will hv my raya cookies next week..Duit Raya dah tukar, sampul raya dah dapat..hmm...BAJU MELAYU abah Dania tak beli lagik!!!!..:p

Pandaikan orang2 ni letak free gifts kat Kiddie Meal..isk isk..Si kenit has started singing Sudirman raya song ..'alik apong..alik apong...OoOoo'..balik kampung mano tuh?

btw I'm still struggling nak habiskan quran ni..ramadhan dah nak habis ni Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

The end of 2nd week of Ramadhan...

Nothing much to story but We had long weekend again..

On Tuesday, I'm down to vomiting..No, I'm not pregnant but salah minum kot..muntah tak hengat but malam tuh I was so sick and the half not at home..at that time I was thinking to call ambulans..

Office is just the same...sickening..we didn't achieve our target last month..short of couple of units..So no makan2 for celebration..hehe

Dania down to fever on Thursday nite but she is okay on Friday morning. But nursery called me to inform that Dania is having fever, vomiting, restless, coughing non stop etc..I rushed back to take her home..With current situation of H1N1, I can't afford to wait until 6pm to bring her home..

Doctor advised if Dania is still at 38'C in the next morning, she need to do H1N1 test. Luckily she is not. Alhamdullilah. She is back to normal temperature 4 hours after our meeting with GP.

She is still coughing but lesser..


Yesterday night, she had her 1st fire crackers..:)..at Achik's house..Pandai main mercun 'pop' jugak..

Adorable..

Sibuk sembahyang & recites Allahuakbar whenever I do my prayers & reciting Quran...

Pandai recites bismillah & amin..:)..

She had her 1st telekung bought from Bandung..:)

Dania, I just want you to be true muslimah, insya allah..I will guide you as much as possible..

First week of Ramadhan..

Errr we are in the 2nd week kan? Hmm..backdated posting..

My 1st week Ramadhan was good..sleepy on the 1st day at work..office starts at 7.45am and going home at 5.00pm...jammed bumper to bumper..;p

I had my 1st Iftar at hotel organised by one of our Panel Insurance at PJ Hilton..The spread was good as expected..the new Japanese Guy who will be responsible to our company account is so handsome..btw he is married with 2 kids..I started my iftar with tempura..oohh i miss real tempura when we were in Japan..the Tokyo Eki tempura is the besttt!!

My st iftar with office mate was at Swensens, Subang Parade..Frankly I never like Swensens food or even their ice-cream..but since Swensens is my ex-colleague all-time favourite, so I have no say..No food photo taken coz we were so hungry but we managed to take group photo itupon not so clear...



Nampak sgt I was hungry kan?

Yesterday, PH hosted annual Iftar for Chi's clan...Initial proposed menu was western food and at the end we back to basic..we had Rice and superb dishes e.g. Sotong tepung, Paprik Ayam, Vege Soup, Sup Tulang, Sambal Belacan, Ulam, Lasagna, Kueh Mueh...

One for the book...

Selamat Beribadah!!

Dulu Lain Sekarang lain

A year ago...



Last month..




The good thing is, after only one ride, she is so satisfied and she waved at the machine goodbye..:)

Ramadhan

hmm..today is 1st day of Ramadhan but tomorrow will be my 1st day of fasting...

Tadik petang baca Nona 'Ramadhan issue', I read about this author's article on her recent visit to Mecca & Medina..and I almost asleep after reading the article..

While feeling so sleepy tetiba rasa sebak sebab..my first visit to these 2 places was with my mum...When I look at the Masjid Nabawi picture in the magazine, I remember how she walked so fast from our hotel to the mosque for our Subuh prayers..That time, I can see her happiest face, and she can't stop smiling.. I think I miss her a lot and I miss these 2 places too..petang tadik I was thinking I'm gonna miss her a lot if she is no longer around...

And i fell asleep while Dania is still watching tv..suddenly my hubby wakes me up bcoz my phone is ringing..you know what? my mum's calling..she asked me what is my menu for breaking fast..she said she cooks rendang, sup tulang, meehun, fried rice, kueh cara and a lot more...

Apsal ye I think it would be the last Ramadhan with my mum?
Is it me? or her?

Anyway, Salam Ramadhan to all readers, Maaf Zahir & Batin...:)

The 8th Bangkok trip experience

We brought my mum along this time..last time she said she wanted to meet Dr Amnuay..2 weeks before the trip, I've called her to asked how she wants to go to LCCT..she said she do not sure until a day before the flight day..I thought she want to change her mind..yelah kan with H1N1 thingy, Ijai newborn due is on 8th (but delivered on 10th), maybe a lot of things in her mind..

Bangkok is still the same but we're still excited since we're going to spend about 4 days exploring the city..

How do you feel when u see ur mum that u knew was quite strong to walk around few shopping malls, shops outlets, and walks for miles, but now can not even button her maxi blouse, too weak to open the water tap, can not even walk for 2 hours?

It was so sad to see my mum to weak to do anything which she likes most..last time she loves window shopping, she loves to buy shoes & clothing, sekarang nak pakai kasut pon tak dapat pakai sendiri..

She keep telling me that she is ok, the blood test was ok, the urine etc etc all seems okay..but I personally think that half of her body (left side) is slowly fading...

We brought her to Chaktuchak market on Sunday but only for an hour walk, she seems so tired..I told her I just want to buy Thai silk..after we found the silk stall,choose the color,bargain for best price, then we pay and then we go to BTS Station...Oh ya we took TukTuk to Chaktuchak..and mum told me that she don't want to take TukTuk anymore..:)..went straight to Siam Paragon for Lunch, left my hubby to continue his shopping, three of us went to Hotel.I told her on Monday we go for spa..I saw her face smiling after hours of walking...we bathed, and take our nap until 5..

U know almost everyday we bought Beriyani for her..so u know how do I get this rice craving when I go for travel..hahaha

On Monday, we left her alone in the hotel for her to rest..we went to Platinum Mall (just walking distance) & some other shipping malls nearby...

My mum amazed with Bumrungrad facilities,the ambiance and the hospitality..The Orthopedic centre has moved to the new building..very corporate look and Dania follow up treatment & Xray only cost us RM178.

Today I am on EL.My mum looked worry since we arrived yesterday..She told me that my SIL just delivered a baby boy and now waiting for her to come home..my SIL mum is also sick and that's y she chose to stay in Seremban..but my mum is not well too..

Ijai is always my mum favourite's since young he did not oppose her words, he has been with my mum for so long since he out of the job for years..No, actually I don't care at all of not getting to be my mum favourite pon, but the thing is my mum is also sick..she can't even pick her own cloth from the floor, what do u expect from her?You can't expect her to assist on confinement..my mum told me Ijai asked her to cook for his wife..banyak cikadak!!

Kakti, mak kata she must give extra attention to others since she knew we can handle it all..I told her it is not fair but mak cakap things seems worked very well with us but not them...then I told her, it's up to her..but if they take advantages and make your condition become worst, I will kill them..:)..

Bunyi mmg ganas..but I dont bloody care..

The Journey to JB-Pagoh-Muar-Tangkak-PHeights

I missed last reunion held at Bangi..tahun biler ek Zetty?..some where during my confinement of 2nd miscarriage..planned to go but I can't..



This time, it was held in Thistle Hotel, JB...I will never miss this reunion again, it would never be any for me, who knows kan?So with my other half & dania, we are heading to South!!


The journey to South was smooth, with GPS, we finally check-in at Mutiara Hotel, this is where we stayed for a night..the room not so grand but we've got deluxe room using my corporate rate..can't wait to go to Thistle Hotel..

We reached at Thistle, Yan greet us, went straight to the restaurant..Meet Zetty, Zid, Meg..The guys went to surau so we went for prayers first..

The reunion begins with eat session (we supposed to have our tahlil but our appointed leader went missing), btw the food was so nice, dessert was so lovely (si kenit makan strawberries ajek okay), the soup, the bbq..wowww...chatting, laughing, flashback..how i miss the old days!!!...

The attendance was not so great, but yang datang pon dah cover almost of my colleagues when we were back in SMSMr...we will try some other time..tunggu Zetty ker Seha ker Abie ker kawin, sure lagi meriah..:)

Saya bangga bersekolah di SMSMr..:)..Dipimpin utk memimpin...



One for the book..

She did it..

Yesterday was my other half birthday..I took half day and ask him to decide whether to watch Transformer with me or Ice Age 3 with 'us'..us means with Dania along..

So we met up at TGV Sunway Pyramid...We queued and we've got seated at 5th row from screen...dokek bonar..I was assuming when the Dinosaur appear, Dania will be screaming & cried since she didn't like ugly faces...
Wrong mama, wrong...

She sat still until the movie ends..She enjoyed the movie and she even interacts with the characters..she said 'lariii cepattttt' and she laughed when all of us laughing...anyway, we knew she loves animals but we were so scared that she will scream of the dinosaurs...but she didn't...

Ohh..she makes me proud..Ice Age 3 is her first cinema movie at the age of 2 years and 3 months..

Acik, there will be more to go, nanti kita gi sama2..kid's ticket is RM6, cheap eh?belanja tau..:p

Month end closing...arghh

No, I don't do account closing but come month end, I need to chase the bankers for LoU issuance..get scolded for any delay of approval or disbursement..scream for numbers..at the end of the day, sales target achieved..rasa mcm nak muntah darah dah..at the same struggling for next month financing promotion, look at the order banks, order forecast, budget...and plan on how to spend the money..muntah darah jugakkk but this one i like very much...tapi kalau promo tak jalan, memang bertubi2 kene kutuk dek outlets..bile promo jalan takde sapa puji pon? caittt..

Today my Head of Dept, called me and asked about my condition..he even allow me to take a break for a while, take some nap if I feel dizzy or I'm allowed to go home if I feel so tired...huh? I think he little bit concern when I finally screamed at my office mate who was chasing for my promotion ..isk tak sabar2..He maybe scared that I may fainted again..

Hey who said Honda lead us? caiitt Today punya gelabah bebudak ni gi JPJ to verify the news...jauh beza wei except for passenger cars lah..but the time will come, we knew, we knew..:)

Comel budak ni..hahaha..siap ada posing lepas dia perasan I'm capturing her actions..

2nd Opinion..

Yesterday, with a help from one of my Clubfoot circle, we went to see Prof Dr Zurin Adnan, at Damansara Specialist Hospital.

The hospital was so packed, the parking all fulled...so I went straight to Dr Zurin's clinic, leaving Dania & her abah looking for parking. Ramai jugak patient at the his clinic, most of them hv nerve problem and they all look terribly sick and weak. The doctor's assistant was expecting me, and registration went smooth. I thought I was late but she asked me to go makan first since Dr Zurin is at the ward.One thing about KPJ hospital, I love their hospitality and warm service, but then again Bumrungrad is much better and SJMC is the worst..:)

Hmm..Dr Zurin was quite surprised to know that previous tumor size was big and he said Dr Kumar has done a good job on the tumor removal. yelahkan the tumor has compressed the other part of the brain and I'm still alive..:)..He's also agreed that the previous the tumor has grows for at least 4-5 years..if the tumor is malignant, the grow is faster and cancerous...

He said the 'thing' maybe not tumor, maybe only a scar tissue or some membrane left after the operation..Since it is benign, I have an option to wait for another 3-4 months for repeat mri...if it is still there and growing, maybe it is tumor and it should be treated using focus radiation, it is stagnant or disappear, I would be lucky..

I told him that I planned to get pregnant soon but he said during pregnancy the tumor can be bigger due to hormon changes...then I get the radiation treatment, the effects of the treatment is no immediate..then I hv to wait until that it's effective...since the radiation involve X-ray, it should be discussed further with Dr Kumar..

With his detail explanation, the options available, treatment etc, he has comforts me...He seems to be a nice and good doctor..unlike other doctors that I've met, they just act as one...

I will wait for another 3 months to ask Dr Kumar for repeat MRI, then I will decide..

We went home and rest...then we sent Mak balik Seremban..and after maghrib we went to Bangi for dinner...yummyyy..:)


sodapppp!!

HE knew better

Cute kan budak ni??



Yesterday, we went to SJMC to see Dr Kumar to confirm what he has seen from the mri scan. At the same time, I've also scheduled same day appointment with Dato Dr Siti, a gynea for my gynea shopping...hehe...

But dream on...the tumor came back, grows from the same location..since it is so tiny (according to the doctor), so he suggested that I should go for laser treatment to stop the grow..The tumor is located near to blood vein (he also mentioned that that 'thing' attached to blood vein)..Dr Kumar also told us if the blood vein burst, I can be paralysed or dead..sound do pretty scary to me..:)



Kakak Dania & Adik Erina ...

Hmm...what should I say here..I'm expecting this but not la so fast..it was just a year ago that I had the operation..Looks like the tumor loves my brain so much..hehe..How do i feel? Frankly this time I do feel scared a bit..unlike the first one...the laser treatment will cost me RM35K..perghhsss...damn expensive huh?So kawan2, simpan lah duit bebanyak..standby..

The first person that I've told on this shocking news was my lady boss...then of course, I've updated my FB status..straight went home, then went out to Abie house with Dania, meet Shareen, Ek & cutey Erina, then went back home again and sleep...



I had a funny dream..I had a dream where it was flashback to my appointment with Dr Kumar but he said NO tumor and he said you can start planning to get pregnant and see u in one year..Ohhyaa it just a dream..and dream on..



We went to KLCC and had Chillies...Dania had a good time and she ate a lot..Tak sempat okay amek gambar the main dish since we didn't take our lunch yet..So damn hungry..


Dania's meal...





And we loves this starter..apa ntah nama dia..


Am I sad? Yes I am...but redha ajek lah..life goes on..I think I'm going to tell Dr that I will see him in August instead..


This lovely cheeky young lady has to face the truth in her life..If I failed in this 2nd test, I hope she can remember me forever..:)

Peace!

New Coach Hampston For Sale

SOLD!!!

Dear readers,

I'm not good in selling things altho' I'm the Sales Planner in my company..so ironic..:p

But I need to sell this New Coach Hampston Handbag just landed from Niagara, Canada.

Why I'm selling this lovely bag off? Coz I already have ONE!!!I asked my other half to buy CARLY, but he bought Hampston instead, so I'm letting this one go..By the way he managed to get me a TOTE for my laptop..i loikeeee...

This is genuine black leather Coach Handbag..Sorry no paperbag but it is still new and NOT PRE-LOVED..anyone interested?leave your contact details..


Selling at RM750..half price from my own Hampston,,arghhhh..

Incompetent cervix

I always shared with you on clubfoot, brain tumor and I'm almost forgot that I've also had incompetent cervix problem during pregnancy.

What is Incompetent Cervix?

From american pregnancy : During pregnancy, as the baby grows and gets heavier, it presses on the cervix. This pressure may cause the cervix to start to open before the baby is ready to be born. This condition is called incompetent cervix or weakened cervix, and it may lead to a miscarriage or premature delivery. However, an incompetent cervix happens in only about 1 out of 100 pregnancies. (ha, aku lagik jadik statistic)

What causes an incompetent or weakened cervix?
A weakened cervix can be caused by one or more of the following conditions:
>Previous surgery on the cervix
>Damage during a difficult birth
>Malformed cervix or uterus from a birth defect
>Previous trauma to the cervix, such as a D&C (dilation and curettage) from a termination or a miscarriage.


How often does an incompetent cervix happen?
An incompetent or weakened cervix happens in about 1-2% of pregnancies. Almost 25% of babies miscarried in the second trimester are due to incompetent cervix.

What is the treatment for a weakened cervix?
The treatment for an incompetent or weakened cervix is a procedure that sews the cervix closed to reinforce the weak cervix. This procedure is called a cerclage and is usually performed between week 14-16 of pregnancy. These sutures will be removed between 36-38 weeks to prevent any problems when you go into labor. Removal of the cerclage does not result in spontaneous delivery of the baby.


My experience :
The cerclage moves in - I'm on epidural and I can feel that Dr Krishna is sewing my 'tut'.Heard that he asked for scissors from the nurse, and also said 'not that one please, it is too violent for pregnant lady' (huh?)

After cerclage - The pregnancy went smooth, alhamdullilah..

During cerclage removal - NO anesthetic shot given..sangat sakit.At that time, my water beg already burst, contraction has started...the cerclage is too deep down, the doctor can't find the exact location and Dania's head is pulling the string...:)..

Am I ready for this experience again???
I think I'm going to wait until 20th June for the decision..

Sekian sahaja..hidup saya penuh dengan cabaran...:)

Pom Pom Girls

Today, Toyota had a friendly bowling tournament with Etiqa at Sunway Pyramid.I'm not playing as I'm not interested with indoor games..haha, alasan but seriously I was there because my boss can not make it..Dania, Qaisara (my colleague's daughter) & me (of course), cheering from the back..

Dania (as usual) need about 5 minutes to warm up but when she meet Qaisara, she starts cheering the team, clapped her hands, sings a song and say hi too all of the players...Qaisara is 2 months older than Dania and I've posted an entry with her photo...tak sempat nak capture any video of her cheers...sebab her action is so spontaneous!!

I purposely did not attend the netball selection for Chairman Award Tournament. I thought I would be able to attend the selection but Dr Kumar is seeing me on 20th on the 'dubious' image seen at my operation area. Maybe next time, I'll play..

Talking about the 'dubious' image..susah nak cakap..hopefully the tumor is finally gone insya allah but if the tumor is there, tawakkal aje lah..:)..i still had my headache, dizziness is still there but no severe pain..

My other half is coming back tomorrow and I'm so happy that the waiting time is finally over..i'm too exhausted doing office work, house work etc..my boss is on holiday and coming back on 15th June, Halina already resigned and she is in Munich(I have to do her report on discounting, P&L, CIP, Honshin Kanri etc etc) and I've to relief them...

I'm truly exhausted..a lots of things to do..:p

My big girl Dania..

I just wanna share something, it's happened last 2 days at nearby Pasar Malam.

Dania : Mama, Ipin!!Ipin!!
Mama : U want Upin & Ipin sticker?

Dania : Yes, Upin

still tak perasan lagik tuh..the next day

Dania : Mama, Nyanya nanak awan babah..Nyanya wan Upin Ipin..

Mama : What?!! U didnt watch Upin & Ipin , mana kenal ni?

So she show her abah Upin & Ipin sticker via webcam..

okay lagi ni...today when we went to brand outlet at IOI Mall,

She saw :-

1.Thomas & friends : Yeahhh omasssss, choo choo!!
2. Utlraman : Omen..woooo

3. Cars : Carsssss, vrooommmmm

4. Barney & friends: Anieee, abop & Ajayyy..

5. Disney princess : Kakakkkk atikkk (huh?!)

We had our quick lunch, impulse shopping and terus balik..:)
Balik terbongkang, I bet kol 6pm br dia akan bangun!!

My baby girl is growing very fast..:)

Last weekend, we didn't go anywhere. I supposed to attend netball training on Saturday but my both hands are still weak. On Sunday, we had our lunch at McD Hicom, then went home and had our dinner at Secret Recipe, Giant PH.

Another weekend is gone..how time flies!!

It has been 2 weeks..

The cappucino pie looks so yummy ek?

Okay, compare to last time (because I'm too busy with my headache), today I must admit that I miss my other half.But he must be enjoying his life without my 'membebel', and 'mencecer'.The most part is I miss her father role to Dania.He is good in entertaining Dania while I'm busy with housework or FBing. Dania is a cheeky girl, although she is independent but she loves us to be around, sing with her, dance with her all along.

He must be scared that I will scream to his daughter endlessly..hahaha... Dania definitely miss him alot more because abah always cuddle her when she cried, and he will layan her tantrums. At nursery, the babysitters told me that Dania call her abah during her nap, and when she cried she wants her abah..Although I'm always be the big monster, Dania is not scared of me at all..too much of Monster Inc kot..

In the office, although economic sounds not so good, more people are leaving Toyota. Last 1st quarter, in my division itself, 4 young execs resigned and this month another 3 more are leaving. Wonder la when is my turn? Okay lah, I will stay at least another 2 years for my 10 years service award..haha..

In another note on the clubfoot, we've finally found a Ponseti believer. Anyone knows any main stream journalist? We need to publish this knowledge for parent's awareness and also we need Malaysian Orthopedics support as well.

Oh ya, I will make an early appointment with Dr Kumar, can't wait until July, got a lot of things to do.

Till then..:)

Happy Mother's Day..

My mum is a mother of 5 children, devoted wife of a unfaithful husband (haha), and also a granny of cheeky grandchildren.She is a government retiree and now dependable on her monthly pension allowance and of course her children (obviously only 2 of her children are contributing). She is very dedicated mother, sensitive,stubborn yet soft-hearted, and most of the time, she is so traditional. For the past 2 years her life is full of sad stories, in short, it was miserable. Last year she performed her Haj without her husband. She's been through a lot and I really pray & hope her remaining years would be more peaceful & meaningful, cherished, full of happiness and of course blessed with a good health..amin!

Acikkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Landing time..!!

To all mothers out there, Happy Mother's Day!

Perlepasan cukai..

Talking about e-filing, i've submitted mine...last year, I've calculated my taxable income and I thought I've paid it all via zakat..but I still need to pay them some more but too little to pay for 'her' botox...if i didn't pay through zakat last year, 10 grans gone to her shopping spree in London, Paris, New York..cait!!..hahaha..but this year I would change my zakat contribution to zakat negeri sembilan...selangor already rich..i got the form from dad and I will submit for this month contribution..

I've also got to know that some of my colleagues in the office are cheating on their e-filing submission..they've submitted their claim to the max for example tax relief for computer claim, sports equipment, and books although they didn't buy any of those..when come to zakat, surprisingly no zakat contribution pon other than zakat fitrah..i'm so speechless and no wonder with 6 months bonus, and at least 20K from ESOS, they always said tak cukup..:)..ikhtibar for myself..

she was supposed to be seated in the baby seat as usual..but on the way back to PH, i thought it is more comfortable to lay down on the back seat for her nap..tapi dia nak tido berdiri daaa...i tried to get her sleep on my lap, mengamuk pulak then she continued tido berdiri for another few minutes...then she surrendered..:)

The Hong Kong trip

The trip was fun, hilarious but not because of the place, i had a good company with me..my close friends from the office were there too...

We stayed at Empire Hotel Kawloon, nearby Kawloon Mosque..Esprit outlet, Giardano, Baleno, Sasa etc just nearby..

On the first day of arrival, we check-in, solat and rest for an hour..free & easy session was spent with window shopping around Kawloon area...We went to Esprit factory outlet, spent some money there, and we cruised along the Nathan Road to the Ladies Market...I was told that the traders are rude, arrogant and ala mafia type, hmm it stops me from the excitement. We found one shop that sells reject Crocs at RM15 per pair if you bought 3 pairs in one receipt. So I bought a pair for Dania..The original crocs in HK is even cheaper..in their boutique, they sold it around RM70/pair. If you wear your own Crocs into the boutique, you'll another get RM20 off. One of us bought 12 pairs of Crocs..isk isk I would say theirs are more trendy and colourful.back to hotel almost midnite..

The 2nd day, after having western breakfast in the hotel, we went to Citygate for 1/2 day shopping before proceed to Disneyland. Sangat mahal walaupon namanye factory outlet. Factory Outlet kat Tokyo pon lagik murah..No wonder tourist loves spending their money in Malaysia. Certain brand ajek kira affordable to buy..I brought my lunch, make some tuna sandwich and had hot tea at Delifrance..I bought 4 Giardano jeans RM50/piece, bought Esprit polo shirt again for hubby..It's raining non stop from morning..at 4.30pm we arrived at Disneyland..hmm,,memang betul, it's smaller...Personally, I think Disneyland ni macam ala imitation but their merchandise are more colorful and..below photo is HK Disney castle & Tokyo Dosney castle..Ignore Manoj, the man who is interframe in this photo..and below HK castle is the Tokyo Castle...

beza kan?

We went to the 3D show, Magic Mickey, the fantasy Gardens, the raining parade..cute aje the character's wearing the rain coat..a lot of things to do with so little time..kene lari2 gak to one another place..Barang-barang Disney in HK a lot more expensive ..Payung bodoh is RM75 ok, and bloody stupid kid's t-shirt cost me RM80..mak oiiii..I really can't wait to go to Florida when seeing the price..At 8.30pm we went back to hotel after watching the fireworks..

Bus dropped us to hotel, lapar, cari makan, then went back hotel, sakit kaki, and tired..webcam with Dania cost me RM20/hour...hmm..nak tgk movie pon RM10/movie..everything is money in HK..Tak larat nak gi HRC HK..tak larat nak angkat lutut..haha

On the last day, we went to this Cyber Cafe owned by Singaporean for heavy breakfast; I had my Nasi Lemak & teh tarik..No I didnt try halal dim sum or what so ever as I'm not interested..
but the nasik lemak sambal sedap..:) then went back to hotel, continue packing...

sangat licin, sangat kebulur nasi!!

Hmm..so Hong Kong is not my favourite...next please..

On flight again..:)

This friday, we are going to HK..the appreciation trip for 2008 achievement which has been downgraded from GC to HK..initially they hv proposed Macau cait!!..but the take up rate is only 16 and HK has more followers..looks like we are going to have a big crowd in HK..

yeah i' goin to the land where the dream comes true again..hikhik..i'll bring along my autograph book..

I've visited Dania's friend in Pandan Utama..Mia Maisarah is a special girl born with left clubfoot..I knew that not everyone is capable to solve a problem or to handle difficult situation..but I can't stand with a doctor who is also a bully..She reminds of Dr Mastura of HTJ & Dr Asyikin of HKL, both are pathetic ...doctor2 macam ni lah cas bagus.. dah lah pakai tudung labuh caitt...bullied those who can't fight back, takde rasa sympathy, angkuh tak tentu pasal...baru tolong 20 org pesakit pon dah tunjuk lagak..Dr Ponseti tuh dah tolong thousand of babies pon tak pernah pon dia angkuh dlm email dia..again, I've forwarded my frustration to Dr Amnuay & Dr Ponseti on some of Malaysian Orthopedic Surgeon attitude in treating clubfoot..very embarrassing!!

To Mazila, please be strong, banyakkan berdoa, semoga Allah memberi rahmat & murahkan rezeki kepada anda sekeluarga..amin!Hug & kisses for Mia Maisarah..:)

The last day

The trip was indeed was a good one...Not a honeymoon trip of course but it is amazing race type of trip...with language barrier, we've survived in Japan!

Things that happened :

1. My pink camera lost in Shin-Osaka.I'm too busy calming down Dania with her tantrum moment, just realised that the camera was gone when we transferred shinkansen to Hiroshima..Yeah, I blamed Dania for this (boleh ker?hahaha). I'm planning to get a new one to replace it since I don't kinda like my sony camera. But we found it back when we went to Lost & found Dept in Shin-Osaka. I was once being told that Japanese didn't take other people belongings. They would rather run to you and return it. They run to us when Dania's right shoes was slipped off, and the Duffy the bear dropped.Kalau kat M'sia ni dah selamat ni, hahaha...melepas nak beli camera baru ni..

2. Some people in Tokyo are rude. They dare to ignore the reserved seat for priority people. If you are old, or pregnant, or handicapped, or mother with infants don't hope so much that you'll be seen.But people in Saijo Hiroshima, Kyoto & Osaka will give ways..:)..There is one time that me & husband were being pushed out from the train altho we've squeezed and given a small path for them to get off from the train. Dania who was with Kakti was so shocked seeing us being pushed away.

3. In my company, standardisation, customer priority and policy compliance are among important things in order to see the value of what you are doing. Surprisingly, it is not happen in some of the places in Japan. Rumah sepah2, jalan sekejap kecik sekejap besar, rumah lain2 bentuk. Customer service in the Toko Hotel in Tokyo is the worst. They didn't offer help to assist to bring the bags upstairs, they didn't apologize,they didn't smile, they didn't want to assist on you how to use the self-laundry machine. But in Osaka & Saijo, it is totally different. Despite of language barrier, their broken english & sign language makes you relieved.

4. Now Dania is 2 years old. we've experienced her 1st tantrum in Japan.Tanya nak apa, tak pandai cakap pulak tapi actually nak tido..caitt..Now her vocab is improving, she sing, she dance and she loves to pose..:)

5. Best jugak travelling dgn toddler ni..u got to get first on board with business class travelers, you got to eat first (opps maybe because we ordered muslim meals), the Japanese show you to the elevator..cuma experience naik their train is not so good, the gap between platform & some of the train is wide & scary...oh ye lagi satu, don't trust weather forecast..follow your instinct..lucky i still pack Dania's warmer clothing, snow cap & glove altho weather forecast forcasted it is between 11 degree to 16 degree..it actually 3 degree celcius...banyak beza tuh..

6. Shinkansen was superb.. sangat laju but u can't feel it.

7. Shopping tak ingat..:)..bought my watch, my Coach, souvenirs, HRC stuff (most of it kawan pesan)..

8. We are glad the amazing race is over..good experience. No, I have no plan to go to Japan anymore...

9. Next Trip : Uncle Sam first or the Oz?or both?hmm..Bangkok is in Aug..:)