Tinggal kenangan

I need to write this for my future memories..

It is hard to say goodbye to the house u once called home that compiles all good and bad memories..

Since the half owner (my dad) plan to sell the house or current situation he plan to rent it out, so we need to clear mak's pinggan mangkuk and anything that belongs to her.. 

This is what happen when someone are not appreciating the hardwork of someone who no longer lives. Furthermore he has new life ahead of him with new wife. So those memories are no longer important.

I think all mothers love to collect pinggan mangkuk name it arcopal,corelle pyrex, and many more. One thing that I would never forget it, how hard our mother keje siang malam , OT every week just go ensure she can pay her monthly installment to own these pieces.

I was at Seremban for 4 days sempena Selangor takde air, and the girls  had their online class on the go and also at acik's place..Since N9 has started their schooling session, so only us at home. I am supposed to drop by at Ampangan to clear some mak's pinggan (even pon I don't need it). We heard from our younger sister that Ayah wants to rent it out (he also intend to sell the house).

I don't have much time left and we left for PD on Friday for short break away. Again on Satursay the car is too full with the kids books, bags and whatever not.

Tak tau lah..half of me kata u don't have to bother as u don't need them pin buat penuh rumah je ..half of me said take it for your memories..So I told my sister Insya Allah I will come after Dania's vaccination on Tuesday's Maulidur Rasul public holiday. At the same I was thinking, if tak sempat nak ambil pon 1'll come back again with Durra another Friday. In my heart, I have prayed to ask Allah to ease my journey in getting some of mak's treasure.

Alhamdullilah..we managed to get some of mak's pinggan. For some people maybe it just a pinggan, but for me it is another piece that shows how hardworking my mum to ensure all of us are well fed and get the best education that we deserved.

These are some pinggan, bowls, and dulang that I took for my keeping, Masya Allah, elok je ada ruang utk dulang and all the pinggan2..

I also took acuan kuih cara..ntah bila lah nak buat..

One of the rare pattern..Durra cakap very old fashion..😒

 Pinggan legend ni jumpa satu..I know mak ada simpan banyak lagi kat kampung..

I witnessed when mak bungkus dulang untuk simpan kat para..

Tanya Dania..kakak ada nak apa2 ker? Ambil lah nenek bagi..She saw congkak n she wants it..

Ni buku ni sajo bawak balik rumah sebab nak tunjuk kat bebudak ni betapa eloknya mama jaga buku..I got A1 for Geography tauuu...

 Lega rasa bila dah ambil sikit barang mak untuk kenangan..rasa began tu hilang..sebeljm ke ampangan, aku tak putus doa dalam hati Allah lembutkan hati aku ni jtk ambil baring and simpan barang2 mak..memang bukan emas berlian pon..tapi itulah saja yang tinggal..

Simpan sini untuk kenangan..❤

Discrimination working culture, office politics...do exist

My previous job was challenging..it tested my patience, my limit but it wont take away my working spirit...expect the uncertainty, discrimination be it sexist or racist and dispute. For me, selagi dia tak halang from doing my prayers, and ganggu my akidah, that's fine..

Despite of working in a well-knowned multi national company, all these working culture do exist.

In my early years, this is the usual remark that my supervisor said to me..

"Z, you are new here..everyone is looking at you. You must make friends with executive at your level and NOT Admin asst.."

- huh? seriously..Layteng is my 1st best friend in my previous company. She introduced me to the whole office..whole office ya not whole division..I enjoyed her company and she always tumpang me in her cute red kancil and will drop me to the nearest bus stop near my rented apartment.

"Z, why muslim still want to wear tudung when the rapist also target those with tudung".

- seriously this is what from her mouth. I know how it comes out. During this time, there was a tragedy involved with a hijab muslim sister who got killed and raped, if I am not mistaken..

"Z, you can not take mc. You can not take leave. You just new here and you need to wait until a year probation is over"

- I did not take leave for a year. I worked late during new model launches, project kicked off . I was not given a break for a while for my breaking fast. But lucky me, I had a partner who pushed m to sneak out and go for quick makan.

"Z, I heard muslim cant wear protection because it is forbidden. That's why muslim has more than enough children"

- What wrong with this lady? Hmm. I just keep my mouth shut and smiled. No I didnt explain the right thing to her as she was not a person who can accept truth. She is an atheist . I know how this come out from her mouth."

This lady was my supervisor for 4 years. She was formerly a secretary promoted to AM. rumours said she has a secret affair with one of the ED in the company. I can confirmed this.  How?

There was a night where I was working very late n waiting for my fiancé to fetch me. I thought this lady boss has gone home. To my surprise, I heard her voice and laughing with one of the familiar voice. When I look at the voice, I saw this lady boss and my ED holding each other arms. Both are married. 

Banggg!! They saw me.

From that day, until few months later, the lady boss did not annoys me anymore. She seldom do the sarcastic remark on muslim anymore, and all instruction given to me was through emails even though she just sat next to me.

Next post, how I got to run away from her...Yeah I managed to get transferred..:)

hellooooo..where all the time go?

The last post was on 2016....oh dear..

Just now I checked, I have many incomplete drafted posting which has many stories to tell.

so what now?

This year mark 5th year of unemployment...hehe

why i said unemployment? who know i'm might comeback to work on something..

but currently NO..I am happy with where I am right now..

I am busy with the kids online learning as u all know we are in the midst of pandemic and god knows when it will over...

the new norms - we stay at home as much as you can, you only go out for tapau or groceries..delivery is the best option but somehow u need to go out to see and witness the outside world..

so how this pandemic treat us so far?

Alhamdullilah..we still have food on our table..the kids schooling are as per usual..Mr Manager once a while will work from home...the 1st two weeks after MCO announcement usually he will wfh..

they have homework to complete, they still have tuition to attend, workshops, enrichment classes and also some activities that need to record for PBD and some need to complete for their pajsk marks..

this year so far so good.. the school pdpr management progress went so well..last year was horrible until I need to send surat cinta to the guru besar cc to KPM and JPS for being a sleeping giant and blur till year end..

kids' online classes everyday morning and afternoon..3 subjects for SK per day and 1 subject for KAFA..

memang lah kesian because the kids claimed pdpr is very tiring compare to normal school days...eh ye ker?

susah nak cari gambar Dania sebab dia selalu tutup camera...tudung hanya standby..maybe boleh ambil gambar dia bila tgh exam baru dia buka camera..

My progress? hmm lama tak lari...berat pon dah naik balik..apoooo

maybe I should start cycling dulu..

take care everyone ..