3009

the magical number...

my 28th birthday...

Ya allah,

on my 28th birthday...

alhamdullilah...You have given me everything that I've wanted..
happy woman, succesfull career woman, a happy wife...

give me strength to go on with my life...this time give me more strength...
cherish me with your bless...
send my love to my beautiful angel babies..
tell them how i miss them so much..
how much they meant to me..

Ya Allah...
Bless me with another chance to get pregnant again..
to have a child on my own..
Give healthy life, healthy career,healthy family...and healthy child..

Amin!

- hv a great dinner with my colleages @ Souled Out, Hartamas..
- my hubby bought me a Baskin Robbin cake!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Personality test..

Your Personality Is
Rational (NT)
You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!Intelligence is important to you.

You always like to be around smart people.In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct.

People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

my life...

let me bring u to who i am when ....

20 years back...8 years old
schooling at sk dato bandar rasah..hm..kampung school...
this is the year that i just started to read an write by myself..
lembab kot at this time...i'm good in playing n smucking ppl..haha
staying at this little tiny flat at desa rasah..my parents rented it from a chinese lady for rm150 per month..
sedih ajek..apa ntah jadi rumah tuh..:(
miskin nye kitaorg masa ni..sob sob

10 years back..18 years old
started my low-profile relationship with someone (ex-muar)..
i've learnt a lot from this relationship..
started new relationship at mcb...kg tunku fella..yucksss
i've learnt a lot from this relationship too...
anyway, all i knew was i'm so regret on this relationship...i hate it..
i've wasted my time in kmb..:p..
i enjoyed my life here in kmb but i cant forgive my self for choosing kmb..
masa ni pon miskin nyeee...

5 years back..23 years old
graduated from PPP-ITM...with 2nd class upper (very dissapointed)..3.61 memalukan!!
my intership dessertation spoiled my cgpa..tu laa main2..
got a job few month b4 graduation..
i didnt invite my parents to my graduation day..coz i've big disagreement with my father..
and i dont feel guilty...at all..i got my photo shoot with my mother with that stupid jubah..
lagipon they have hurts me..n ITM only - what the hack kan?..no class lah
they even say it's already too late to show them that i've did it with flying colors..
they still mad at me for not being able to 'fly' to oversea for my degree...
never proud for being a ITM graduate - no offence..

2 years back...26 years old
married with someone that i've knew for almost 5 years..
charming, cool, patience and loving..:)
move in into rented house which cost us rm700/mth..sunway
i've got my cute atoz..worth of RM45k...wkn9438..
too be frank i think i deserved higher cc car..

1 year ago...27 years old..
i was given a short-time from The Mighty to experience as mum-to-be..a taste from heaven..
2 times in a year...sadness, unbeliveable experience that i've gone through..
8th weeks n 18th weeks...hmm..i'm so speecheless
we've move into our own house..at subang jaya area..
at last we owned our own piece of land..at least it is from our own money..
tak main laa pinjam2/parents sponsored! haha

this year..28 years old but still standing high..
i'm in sales division now...happier..far away from the bloody fucking lady boss...
i need a break of doing something that I didnt expert...but sales is more exciting than ever!!
last may - went to old trafford, london etc...13 hours in flight..big achievement so far..
hello!i'm a height freak!!..london eye?!!!..i've conquered london eye..:)
sadness again..16th weeks

next year...29 years old
nak try lagi..this time planning to take 4 months off..unpaid leave..
if still not successful-as my hubby said , tutop kedai..
i hv no idea if another sadness happen...nauzubillah...
so this year bonus kene simpan...mintak2 laa dapat at least 5 months..

35 years old..
a manager..dedicated one..still toyota? i dont think so..anyone afford to pay me rm6k/mth?
a mother of 2-3 kids..amin!
a driver of Jazz/Yaris/any damn-cute-cbu car in town..hehe
a wife..dedicated wife who owns a happy family..will love more n more to my loving husband...i love u darling...muahz
enrolled n graduated mba maybe?
amin ya allah amin ya rahim...amin!!

Ya Allah, give me courage, give me strengh, give me happiness when i've to go though with Your plan..
Amin!

few days to go..

i'm going to be 28 this year..another few more days..

i have to stop running for my career..
i have to have focus to start a family this year jugak..

no one can understand what i've been thru..
i never failed...but this one, i failed 3 times..unbelieveable..

no one can understand my sadness..
no one can understand...

How do I go for here?

my job sucks
my life sucks
how do i go for here?

my only hope to live - my beloved husband..:)

4th day as a SKII's user

I feel good..
I feel stunning..haha
I cant wait to see the result..

Counting the days...

another 29 days to 28th years as a human being..
another 2 years to 30th...

before become 30...
> able to get pregnant again
> able to be a mother
> able to earn more at least 30% of current salary
> able to hv minor renovation for my house...must positive!!
> able to own non-national car..wowww...honestly, i dont think so
> to serve my husband as good as i can...:)

today? today i met my ex-boss in tqe council..we r against her (me & gordon)..
cant believe it...:)