Makan2

Harini whitey gi Gardens..tanya Dania nak makan apa..Dania kata dia nak makan mee..so dlm keta, we decided to eat at Pizza Hut..sampai MV, ponya beratur org nak masuk Pizza Hut..perut dah lapar, Dania kata cepat lah mama, Dania nak makan mee..

Dlm byk2 kedai dan lalu Tony Romas x berapa ramai, so we decided to eat at Tony Romas.

Mr Hubby order sandwich, aku pulak kongsi dengan Dania, makan pasta & special request to chef, No spicy at all.Dania ingat pasta tuh mee..so boleh lah kan..:D..Sandwich yang Mr Hubby order size atok sandwich..besar gile..lol..

Memula Dania makan Roti yang cecah apa ntah..Tapi dia cecah dgn mayonaise.Nampak cara makan mcm menyelerakan..:p

I've told her jangan makan banyak2 since we have ordered shrimp pasta and share makan. Mcm biasa dia angguk ajek lah..:D

Sebagai anak yang baik, she finished her portion..:D

Mama, sedap mee ni..hahaha
Dania ni kalau makan meehun ker fried pasta, dia boleh makan portion abah dia, itupon kalau mama masak sedap lah..:D

Kalau nasi pulak doia boleh makan satu senduk setgh..but since we all tukar beras, dia dah taknak makan nasi pulak....beras basmathi kashmir tuh x sedap..

whitey dah start jalan2..:D..so far so good..

My Unsung Rider and new BFF

She has been my best friend for almost 5 years..
Bought her few weeks after I had my 3rd miscarriage back in 2005..
Somehow after the 3rd lost, I feel that I want something new in life..
At the same time travelling PH-Sban-PH is so tiring with under performance Atoz.
After 3rd miscarriage, I had to travel to HTJ, Sban for some testing on the blood, diabetic,womb, uterus, cervix x-ray and many more...

Since I need something new to breathe and chill with, so I've decided to have her into my life.Registered her with my birthday numbering to become more meaningful...:D
Even Mr husband was quite surprised when I decided to have her.

She has been a good friend of mine.Although there was a roof leaking during 1st week of ownership, 3 times special service campaign, accident involved with police parol car, scratches, some minor accident (Mr Husband yang byk buat dia accident..:p)

The best of her is..JIMAT MINYAKKKKK!!!!!!...dia buatkan aku malas nak claim mileage sampai boss membebel2..dah minyak tuh dlm budget bulan2 aku, malas lah aku nak claim..:D..eh eh kalau pegi outstation ker jumpa bankers kat KL tuh aku claim..cuma branch dekat2, mtg ngan TCap ajek aku malas..

Goldie 3009..thank you for the 5 amazing years..Dania can't accept that you are no longer around..Dania membesar with you along, remember? She will always remember you, so do I.

You were there when I had my miscarriage investigation, cerclage placement, rushing me to emergency whenever I had miscarriage scare.

You were there when Dania had her clubfoot treatment & premature check up in HKL, and most of all, you were there when I had my brain surgery and although I had most painful headache, I managed to reach safely to where I want to go.

I need to let you go since you have done enough to us.

You will not be forgotten.

Sedih pulak aku.Ye aku bercakap dengan kereta..:p

okok, welcome whitey.Since you are so cute & compact, we will only drive you on city driving.Don't be so pampered and you need to be at Goldie's benchmark.

Dania's 3rd Birthday Party Bash

ok ok..i'm one of the 'over' mama..:p

Dania was born on April fool day.This year, we decided to organise a party for Dania for the 1st time at home. Earlier plan was to have it at one of the fast food restaurant but at the end, considering that there would be so many relatives & friends to be invited, we end up doing it at home. We also planned to have Dania's birthday party at her nursery on her birthday, so that she can celebrate with her friends.

I sang her a happy birthday song early in the morning and she responded with a huge smile. Perasan dah ni..On that day, I took 1/2 day leave to pick up her Pooh cake and cuppies for Mysarah (my boss daughter). Thank you Kak Shaz for entertaining last minute request for my boss.

A night before Dania's birthday, three of us was busy packing for about 40 fun packs for Dania's friends.Pagi2, I've told Su to fry 2 packs of nuggets and also told her that I've packed one new dress for Dania to wear on the afternoon. After Asar, we went to nursery and I saw my princess was overwhelming with the celebration. She was sitting at the cake table and she was surrounded with her good friends. I'm quite surprised when knowing at her young age, she already got her own colleagues. She sat with her 4 friends, chat, & laugh together. She looks so blurr when seeing me entered the nursery. Siti, one of the babysitter told me that Dania already told them that she will be getting a Pooh cake. Pandai betul anak aku ni. The cake cutting was so meriah & Dania was so excited when we asked her to personally pass the fun pack to her friends. Sampai terhantuk2 dahi.Again, she was sitting around her colleague's friend.

Actually, few days before 1st April, if you told her that her birthday is coming soon, she would say 'lambat lagi'..hehh ko yang tetiap hari mintak buat birthday party since early year, when the day is nearly coming,now u said lambat lagik..aduss..tak pasal ajek kenit ni buat hal on her party..

I took 1/2 day leave on Friday to collect cuppies from Kak Shaz and balik rumah terus rasa nak terlentang. I've started with laundry, then start the indoor decorations. Takde lah deco sangat, cuma put some Pooh & Friends flags, table cloth turns to wall banner dan pikir how to make the living hall looks bigger..:D

I know some people thinks why lah sampai berkhemah2 buat party birthday anak.1st and foremost because of space.Invitees mmg dlm 100++ org. plus kanak2.Then kalau semua duduk dlm rumah, sure ada yang duduk bertindih..:D..2ndly dah rumah sempit tuh then nak bagi org selesa, kenelah buat khemah. Luckily tak jadik ambik indoor bouncer. Kalau tak confirm penuh. 3rdly sebab senang org nak carik rumah, tapi ada jugak yg sesat2 tuh..:D

Dania was so excited (again!!) seeing all of us busy decorating the house. Mak is helping me to prepare lempuk durian. Ayah has to leave early, according to my mum, he is going to Kuantan visiting one my cousin who just woke up from coma.He bought a remote control plane for Dania.

I managed to get Dania to sleep by 12.30noon. The 3D cake has arrived since morning, balloons arrived at 2pm. Dania woke up at 3pm. Okaylah tuh cuma tak cukup 1/2 hour ajek. Hah mana caterer? My guest slowly dtg after 3pm. A day before, Che Mat informed me that he can't be at the party to observe his people but Husin would be there. Since 2.15pm the caterer was on the way from nowhere to nowhere. Panic mode began when my guests started coming.

My husband told me to start with cake cutting since guests are already waiting. So, we start with cake cutting at 3.45pm where the caterer just came and set up the buffet table. Harus minta discount ni. Bak kata Kak M, Melayu kalau dah kaya mmg camtuh, lupa diri.Kak M emo jugak since she was the one who introduced me to this Che Mat. Mak Kak M pon emo when knowing the caterer not yet came.Lepas ni aku takde deh nak amek kat ko..:p

The balloons are everywhere, memang tak terlayan with the crowd and also anak aku yang asik nak minta dukung. Dania is so not friendly with larger crowd. Tapi suka pulak kalau dpt hadiah. Fina was complaining that Dania x nak salam sebab dia tak bawak hadiah..aduss

Alice told why I did not have any activity for the kids.Aduss.. maybe next year eh when Dania can tolerate with the crowd, I will have bouncer & clown at the same time...:D cehhh dah ada plan dah ni..hahaha

The food is not so great and one of my SIL told me that I can cook by myself.Sapa nak tolong masak ye, dah semua duduk jauh2..ini pon nuggets adik aku yg tolong goreng. Next time we will have better menu,better cake & activities??..:D

Talking about cake, this 3D cake look so cantik but the cake is so dry. potong ajek pecah.ker aku x pandai potong? tapi mmg pecah lahh..:p ..mahal babe RM200 tuh..takpelah next time we order from other supplier eh?

Sangat penat, but I think this is what we called experience. Almost perfect but catering spoiled the day. Anyway, we won't call him anymore. Banned!!!..Tak banyak photos taken since we are busy entertaining the crowd and I can't imagine hosting my sister's engagement..:p..(Acik bilo laie ni, baju flower girl dah beli ni weh, kang senteng kang!)
Dear Dania,

Mama & Abah love you so much and this is the only gift that we can give you, with lots & lots of love.Mama hopes that you won't forget that we love you so much and how struggle we are to make a better life for you. Money can be earned but loving you is the precious thing that ever happen to us.

Thank you to everyone who makes this party happen. I'm going for radiosurgery this month, I'm going to remember this event when I'm 'fighting' in there. Hope to write soon.

Jack and Jill went up the hill

Tiring day..just got back from Genting Highlands.

The 1st time I went to Genting Highlands was long long time ago with my other half. We went there for a day trip and went up the hill in our old proton wira. I'm so gayat at the point of looking down the hill and and also looking up the Genting building . We just jalan2, makan2...and nothing seems interesting to me.

I've told my other half, I would never come up again.

When my superior suggested me to replace my HOD to RHB Appreciation Dinner at Genting Highland, so what could I say? saya menurut perintah lah kan..

So yesterday, Kak M, Koya & myself reached Genting Highlands at 5.30pm. We stayed at 1st World Hotel. Reached at the lobby, got 2 rooms keys from the organiser. One room for 3 of us and another room for our boss who will be late.

The event starts at 7pm but we've told the organiser that we will join them after Maghrib. Boss arrived at 7.30pm and we asked him to go in together.

At 8pm. we arrived at the ballroom entrance & register. While my boss is still not ready to go in, me & Kak M entered the ballroom and were ushered to VIP table. Our table is just next to VVIP table and very front to the stage.Oh ya my boss is seated with VVIP.

VIP table are sucks!..makan hidang babe, tak kenyang!..aku pon sibuk chatting with Proton dealer seated next to me...sempat jugak berFB..:D..my superior is busy with networking with VVIP...my boss??Nampak sangat tidak tenteram...busy going out and I have no idea what is he doing outside.

After dinner, my boss called me and surrender his room key and Kak M to take over his room. He has his own agenda (suspicious mode). Met Koya at KFC, and three of us went to midnight shopping & koya time..:D

Reached our room at 1.30am and Kak M is too tired to change room.

Today, we continue shopping and I feel like I'm in Hong Kong...:D

The choices are better than what we had in KL ker aku yg buta? A lots of sweater range..and sangat murah..

Ok, I will have another trip to this Kota Keriangan by end of this year...Chairman, join us!!

BZ

My 2 Saturdays gone..btw, comel ek budak atas ni?

Last Saturday spent on teambuilding..

Another coming Saturday will be spent at Genting..

Next Saturday Dania's party..

Now, started Busy preparing Dania's Birthday Bash..

Dania's dress - checked

Caterer-paid

Canopy-paid

Balloons - NOT YET (sapa tau mana nak carik Helium Balloon murah other than Ballon Buz/Pleasant Suprise??)

Fun Pack - ordered

Banner- ordered

Decorations - Too early..:D

Spring Cleaning - 28th & 2nd April

Invitation - checked

Apa lagik? Nasib ada kawan2 tolong..hehe..

Ohya I'm selling current 3009..:D

Later post, I will write an entry on 5 years ago decision..

Btw 3009 will replace with 3775..:)

Packing to Genting..see ya!!

March..

Last week was quite hectic..I received a call from my superior and she asked me to pack and off to Batu Pahat for Regional meeting. Me going to Batu Pahat?? Don't get me wrong as I have no offend to travel. I said ok, I'll go, hang up and immediately called my Other Half. He said he need to standby on the night that I supposed to be in BP. I told him that Dania can stay longer at nursery and I will arrange with the babysitter. Called nursery and they said ok to let Dania stay until midnite. So, I packed my luggage and the next day, and tadaa I'm already in BP..:D

In my company, travelling is a must and you won't be at your desk for whole years. If you are lucky, u got to go to overseas as well (hehe certainly not me but they sent to S'pore once..:D)

So why I'm so angry ?

1. I've received a call a night before departure and I'm okay with it. But I've received a call from the team that supposed to coordinate this with a wish ' Selamat Kene Bambu dgn Southern'..u say what???

2. Usually at Southern, JB is the common place that they used to held the regional meeting. Semua berlumba nak pegi JB. You can see 4-5 people from Sales Planning attending. Hah! Of course lah got other agenda that I shall not to elaborate here...There are some close to dealers in JB too..Whatever agenda it is, sepandai2 tupai melompat lah ya...:p

3. This month, everybody seems not so excited going to Southern anymore and my superior was asked to assist in presenting the beloved Promotion Notice. Of course I'll be the one who will present it lah. I hv no problem in this area bcoz I was once in promo team and I have no problem in public speaking unlike some in my division..:p..tapi kenapa last minute??buduss!! aku ni kene pikir mana nak letak anak aku..after 6.30pm overtime wei, sapa nak bayo??Itu ok jugak tuh..lately husband pon asyik standby balik memalam..aduss..

Aku dgn lasernye pon perli gak lah kepada sesapa yang terasa kat office tuh..Haha..Sorry babe, next time if this things do happen again, I need to report.I have to reschedule my other meetings becoz of this emergency call. When we got back from BP, a lot of things happened and need our attention. My superior was cursing madly. 'Next time we will not cooperate with this last minute call'...alahh boss, u will cooperate ponya..

Bodoh!Thought they r friends..I've been used..*&^%$#

Kenit says Kesian Nyanya, mama pegi jalan2..:(.. (Abah dia racun dia berkata begitu)..

CNY - my own way of celebration

When we received internal circulation from HR stating that there would be forced leave on 17th Feb, I'm just wondering why lah they gave us this extra leave. Believe it or not I did not have any plan to do..I managed to get my booking to Avillion only on 20th..iskk iskk iskk

So on 13th..Me & Dania went out for CHi gathering at DELIcious..the food are so delicious ok..:)..Dania enjoyed the food very much. I've ordered Aglio Olio Corn Beef minus the cili padi since I'm sharing with kenit. As expected Dania already 'kiok' nearly at 1pm. This 'Brunch' idea is so superb since we are able to wrapped up by 1pm (Dania's nap time) she will start her tantrums if she can't get comfortable sleep..huh sounds like who??..I've read somewhere in the internet that 34-36 months kid will have less napping hour at day time and will have mellow tantrums. Mellow tantrums tuh betul but Dania still need 3 hours sleep at day time..again, comfortably means she need to sleep on the comfy bed..

14th is Dania's 1st anniversary of walking. We had our lunch at Taipan since the restaurant that we wanted to go was closed, we asked Dania what she wants to eat for lunch. Confidently, she told us 'KFC'..and there u go..isk isk isk..mintak 'nasik golen' lagik tuh..After lunch, we went home bcoz I had tonnes of laundry to do..:D
On 15th..we have a date with Clarissa, 18 months born clubfeet baby from Penang. Her dad is from KL and this girl is so chubby especially the pipi...:D..Her feet is already corrected. The left feet respond is slower than the right one but she is ok. Already standing on her beautiful feet but yet to walk. Did I told you there is an idiot orthopedic doctor in Penang had wrongly manipulated her feet which caused her left feet looks odd? Although both feet are corrected by Dr Amnuay, Clarissa did not allow anyone to touch her feet..she is still in trauma and she just a kid..:(

After had a quick breakfast with Clarissa & her parents, we went to Isetan to buy a newborn gift for baby Akeel, Ilham's newborn. After that, we straight to Kota Damansara. When we arrived, everyone is having their lunch..hehehe.. langkah kanan.The baby is so cute. Now Ilham got 3 boys to take care.

At Ilham's house, Dania had some rice already (plain rice and fried chicken) but when we just moved from Ilham's house, Dania told me she want to eat 'nasi golen'..adusss...So we decided to go to OU and we ordered her 'nasi golen' at Sri Melaka and me & hubby had nice teh tarik and sago pudding..:D

After that, rounding kejap kat U-parkson and surveying Dania's dress for her birthday party..hahaha..yes yes the party would be on early April but we've already started planning.I've ordered the birthday cake, fun packs, caterings and consistently surveying the decorations and her dress. What would u do if your 3 years old daughter is constantly singing the Birthday song and ask you to buy a cake so that she can blow the candle, cut the cake and distribute.. Ini lengkap dengan action ok..hahaha..she is the one who asked for Pooh Cake..:D

Ok ok on 16th pulak ...I did some simple dish..nasi tomato and ayam masak merah..:D..instant kuah dhal and of course Dania's vege soup. After Asar, kenit pon dah bangun, we went to nearby jogging track and Dania had a great time jogging plus walking one whole track..Saya jalan ajek cikk...hahaha..After spent one hour at jogging track, we went for jalan2 of nearby new houses development. Still berangan to own another house nihh..angan2 ajek..:D



Since I'm on forced leave tomorrow, I have to force myself to do some retail therapy a.k.a. survey for Dania's birthday props..:D

Cheating & Cheated

If you one of my FB friends, you might noticed that one of my status last month was on witnessing a Malay couple holding hand while queuing for movie tickets were chatting about their spouse.

Although currently, in my office macam dah ada 'broken-hearted' musim and at the same time 'cheated-cheating' season pon belum surut lagi.

I'm scared to elaborate more but I hope it won't happen to me and my closed friends.

How to catch cheating spouse. Some tips which you can find over the Internet.

1. Suspicious cell phone behavior.Perhaps your partner has been hiding their cell phone, or quickly ducking into another room to take phone calls?


2. Smelling of another person's perfume or cologne.Noticed this? Or has your partner suddenly started doing their own laundry at strange hours?


3. Popping out at strange hours. Perhaps working late nights when they didn't use to? Or going to see some friend that you've never heard of?


4. Their Internet history constantly being deleted and suspicious behavior when checking email and during online chatting.

Item #1. Me & another half always check each other call log, and smses. Memang lah kalau jenis smarter, you can always delete the email..:D..But Ayah kept his phone away from mak. We all know he is still cheating on Mak..:(

Item #2. Maybe now I must recognise and remember his smells lah. hahaha. But I can catch him if he smoke. I usually smell his hand...:D

Item #3. Hmm..tatau nak comment.His nature works at late hours..:(

Item #4. So far his laptops is full with movies, soccer news and photography manuals.

Ntahlah..sometimes with all preventions, precautions, kalau nak jadik, jadik jugak, kan??

To my single friends who broken hearted by heartless men, ingatlah jodoh & ajal di tangan Allah..Didoakan kesejahteraan hidupmu berkekalan dengan jodoh yang baik2...amin!!!

To cheating spouse...what goes around comes around..:p

To cheated wife...gather all evidence, pack ur things, grab ur children & move on..:D

Wallahuallam..

January is ending

I've been waiting for this..My heart pumping when the trip is coming nearer..alhamdullilah everything went well..here some of the story..

To be frank, I'm very excited for Bangkok trip this time becoz we are going to buy Thai Silk!!We've bought a lot of Thai Silk for sale. No we didn't do it as commercial becoz we want to use some of the money to register Malaysia Clubfoot Blog to dot org and also to do some of easy-managed activities to increase awareness of this correctable birth defect..:)

All kain are already sold except for this pink colour at the centre..RM200 [2.5 yard each]...anyone??Yg kiri purple & hijau tuh is mine and Dania.Not for sale of course.


I would say this is the most enjoyable trip to Bangkok so far...Maybe because we went there with MAS and we able to get what we wanted to buy, went to places that we planned to go and what we wanted to see.We went to Siam Ocean World. So damn expensive but its worth it..:D


We enjoyed eating at nearby Arab restaurant especially this one.Tak ingat nama kedai but along Arab street. Dania hirup tomyam tuh..:)
Oh ya we've met Dr Amnuay on last day of trip. We bought him some gifts from Malaysia. Dr Amnuay said that Dania's feet is soft and looks wonderful. Dania not giving her usual cooperation with the doctor because she wants to go 'jalan-jalan'. The consultation is only about 20 minutes and the cost is only 970 Baht...:D

I have problem to convince Dania to go for nursery on the next day. She cried and I have to take 1/2 day leave to calm her. I've brought her to Esso Mart, bought her some breakfast and go back to nursery. But I've failed. She cried again and she said wanted to go 'jalan-jalan'.

I've already told her that we've already went for 'jalan-jalan' and now it's time to go to sekolah. She didn't get it..adusss..nasib baik lah her baby sitter quickly gets her from me and pujuk habis.I've problem with Dania everytime we had long weekends and short holiday.She even told her babysitter that 'Mama tinggalkan Nyanya. Mama pegi jalan2'...huh???

Since she know how to borak2 ni...susah sikit nak tipu..most of times she can easily follow my instruction but sometimes she also had her tantrums. Tak selalu lah, time angin pus pus datang ajek. She always imitate me. 'Tunggu okay, nyanya tgh buat keje'...'Jangan lah kacau, nyanya tgh lukis ni' or 'Makan butun-butun, jangan syepah-syepah'..huh?? Most annoying she will asked me to pick up her toys and tidy up the place.




Bangkok trip become more and more friendlier and we've enjoyed ourselves very much. We will be in Bangkok again in July..anyone joining??

Subway & Starbucks.

I had my lunch with my boss..take-away Subway sandwich (Parmesan Oregano bread; filling with Steak & cheese) and my favourite Starbucks Caramel Macchiato..super duper delicious and mouth watering lunch..:D

Seronoknye makan..macam mana nak kurus? No I won't believe in dieting anymore..diet will not in my dictionary since food is the heaven on earth!!!


Quite no of times, me & other half had lunch at Subway ...In Subway, I will choose most tempting bread which my always favourite Parmesan Oregano, double cheese, meat or roasted chicken or sometimes tuna..

Oh ye Dania had new shoes finally..Dah berpuluh kedai keluar masuk..we went to Clark, Bata, Jusco, Crocs (many many times), Adidas, u name it..She still sayang her old Crocs shoes which I bought sometimes in HK.There is one sandal in Adidas that she likes but we did not buy as we want to buy her a good proper shoe.Finally she choose this shoe..Cute & simple..si kenit shows us how Minnie Mouse dance with that shoe and we Abah asked her to take out the shoes, immediately she run away from us..hehe..She thought the shoe is like a ballet shoe..chitt porahhh..

Since her clubfoot feet is a bit smaller than the normal feet, one of the shoe memang obviously seen kaki senang keluar..:(

Anyone knows where can I tempah kasut sekolah?or kalau takde then when she started school I will buy her 2 pairs with different sizes..kesian kan?'Cian nyanya' - Dania favourite quote if something troubles her.

2009,The Memories... 2010 The Challenges are coming.

Dania

She is officially 2 years old when we were in Tokyo, Japan. She started walking at 22 months old on Valentine's Day.The Disneyland trip is some sort of birthday gift to her although it was actually free entrance for kids below 4 years old.hehe.She is now wearing correction Foot Abduction Shoes; Mitchell shoes at least 9 hours per day.Actually it supposed to be at least 12 hours per day but we make it to minimum 9 hours or more.She knows how to count from 1-10 (both English & Malay), alphabet but still sounded 'pelat'ly..knows some shape, colours by claiming puprple is Barney,yellow is BJ color, red is flower colour, green is Baby Bop color and so on etc..penat ajar but she make it as a short cut..ohh yaa she is love with animals and recognised them all..

She had her 1st baju kebaya during raya, and this raya we only bought her 1 baju kurung + 2 pairs of normal clothing.Oh ya and a dress from Bangkok trip (in August) and the dress is no longer fit her in December. In December, she is weighted 15.5kg and 96cm.

What else ya? She is still adorable, matured and my only princess..I love her so much..:)

My other half

Still the same.Quiet but love and care us very much.Still addicted to TV-Series, football partcularly EPL & ManUtd, MP3, Bejewelled etc. Bought Wii, Digital Frame, Nikon D90, Photo Printer and a lot more.I really don't know whether he really enjoyed his current attachment.But I hate when he has to go work silently at 9pm and back during Subuh.It is not I hate to sleep alone but I hate to lie to Dania that his abah is going for Allahuakbar (to surau) or Abah pegi yak or Abah downstairs..recently she corrected me..Mama, Abah go work lah..:)..adusss..I hate when he has to travel but I love him more when he bought me handbags and many more..hahaha..sungguh mata duitan..

Myself

On my health, it was not really a good year as I'm expecting tumor-free so that I'm able to get pregnant again (which I did)...

On my career, nothing much has changed.New boss is not so great as he is next to Japanese bosses. Preferred the previous one, matures and very decisive.But looking forward for 2010 new management as it would be more challenging.

On relationship, very good relationship with other half. We did a lot of travel this year and we can compromise a lot of things. Things can be discussed and negotiated.We have registered for Haj, insyallah we will be going together.But I hate when he come home late.Anyhow I love all the gifts..:D

On financial,not so great but I managed to save 1/4 of the monthly salary.Memang kalau dalam ASB tuh in and out frequently, but managed to secure a lot in my Tabung Haji. Still have my ESOS (RM3.33/lot) and do not know when to exercise as 2008 tax is unforgettable.RM10k babe!!!!Nasib ada zakat relief..perghssss..

My hope in 2010

I want to fight with this tumor to the end, insya allah..

I want to spend more time with Dania.This year we will have her birthday party at home, yes at home although our home is still at mess..:D

I want my husband to take a lot of photos of me & Dania..so that she won't forget me when I'm no longer around. ehemm I hope he will not forget me too..:D

I will go home as early as 5.30pm every working day..:

Thank you 2009 and welcome 2010, a long journey with hope and white dreams..

Ka-chingggg

The letter is out..Tun hand it to me once I got back from SDMC. Despite of slow units of sales, we managed to get as same amount as last year..alhamdullilah..Minus zakat, and advance salary (for raya) .. what only left is about 65%..heh..:D

Our anniversary is coming, and I'm buying him an Ipod Classic as he has mentioned to me once..belum order online lagik bcoz tgh pikir what to engrave on it..I've asked Dania what she wants and I gave her 2 options : a piano or a bicycle, heh, she told me she wants a bicycle.So this weekend I'm going to find her a new bike, and just now we bought her that 'pinano' and wrap it as a gift..:D..yeah she got both..


For myself, this handbag so tempting. Coach is doing its clearance sale but not this one..arghh..anyone going to USA?

That's all for my spending...the rest will be kept for the rainy days..:D
Hv a good weekend!!

The Most Happening Month of 2009

My life rocks!!
If I were to vote, this month is the most exciting month of 2009. We went to Bukit Merah LakeTown at early month.We went to the Orang Utan Island, Eco Park, Chair lift, and lastly the water park. We had so much fun, Dania got sun burn and most of all we had good vocation..hehe

Then on 9th, I'm visiting my sjmc gynea (my next delivery will be in sjmc mind you since I have big history in this hospital) and it is confirmed that i'm truly positive and abortion need to be done and I'm truly ready by fasting since midnite but Dr Lee told me all OT are full.Then they arranged for emergency admission for me on the following day.

The next day, I had delivered my 4th angel, my 5th pregnancy and Dania's other siblings.When I got home (discharged on the same day), I told Dania baby is no longer in my tummy, and I also inform her, she is now a kakak. She responded with smile.Usually when we told them there is a baby inside mama's tummy, she touched my tummy she will said, 'baby tido'..now she asked me to cover my tummy, malu lah she said..In truth, the meningioma (the type of tumor that I've owned) will get bigger when the pregnancy goes along...:)

So, my radiosurgery will be rescheduled as Dr Lee told me at least I need to wait for 1 week and a half before the surgery can be done and he has informed Dr Kumar on my updates. That is the advantage doing all your health check in one roof but the disadvantage is the cost is too much.I hate to reschedule this arrangement coz I think I can't wait any longer.I'm mentally ready altho my physical is not.I don't think I want anybody advice on this.I just want to get over this thing as early as I can so that I can just move on.

I ate a lot of ginger, black pepper and ikan haruan these couple of days.This time I do my own confinement coz my mum is not knowing what is happening and what will happen after this.She already had too much in her plate and I would rather confine myself without her.

My boss told me if it is happen to her, and her mum knows what had happened she would probably nagging non-stop of not using precautions.For me, this things happens for a reason , and as audience we should not rub some salt in a wound.Cukup2 lah dengan apa yang org tuh hadapi, takyah ler nak tambah2...

I'm a person yang tak perlu pulak org bagi kata2 azimat ker semangat ker bcoz I know how to find my soul and strength.Kalau org bagi nasihat lagik lerr will make me weaker.I need to stay positive with friends who also can think positive. huh emo sikit malam ni..hehe

Eh Dania dah jadik kakak..:)

It is not the end of the world..

In life, things are unpredictable..one second you can be happy & laugh, another second you might be cry in tears..

When somethings hit you badly, we got angry and we cursed, we break down & cried and some people commit suicide...on the road pon, if somebody did not give signals for turning, drive like a kura-kura or drive like a F1 driver pon, we'll cursed madly..hehe..

Ironically, when my gynea diagnosed my miscarriages are due to incompetent cervix, I did not cried..when seeing Dania's clubfeet at the first time also, I was puzzled but I did not complaint..Then I was diagnosed with brain tumor and need a emergency surgery,I'm still okay and receptive..

Today when entered Dr Kumar's room, I've told him that I've read the radiologist summary and I knew that there is recurrence..He just smiled but he told me 'i've told u so'...He explained my situation he shows us the brain diagram and where is the tumor located..a ah Dania was there too..betul kata Kak Mas, usually when the mummy is sick, the children will be more matured from their age..She sat still, and listened to our conversation..

The tumor is confirmed slightly growing and it grows at the same location..it grows on the blood vein..The radio surgery may not kill the tumor totally, but it helps to stop and reduce it from growing..since the tumor is still small, the radiation is strong enough to focus on the tumor..Surgery is not possible to remove the tumor since it may grow back unless the blood vein is cut and re-attach..and the patient may get stroke..

So the best option is to opt for radiation and after than I'll be monitored every 6 months with MRI..If another 3-4 years the tumor is not growing after the radiation, it can be confirmed that the tumor is no longer grows..With latest technology in radio surgery, it may not need an equipment to make ur head stay still for the laser shoot..but then the hardware & software is not yet arrived at SJMC ..then if that case, my head will drilled with some paku to make my head stay still..tapi he asked me to remind him next Monday to confirm...aku jugak yg kene remind ker? adusss..Tentatively the radiosurgery will be on 17th Dec..

Both Doctors, Dr Kumar & Dr Zurin told me that the cause of brain tumor is unknown..it not caused of what u've hv eaten. ur lifestyle or whatever..betul jugak tuh takkan 3 months old baby pon ada brain tumor..so nasib2 lah..but I feel so blessed having this illness..

Bosan lah citer pasal brain tumor ni....since yesterday, I heard Dania nanyi 'aku cintaaaa' tapi macam dengar tak dengar..Today she got 2 microphones from McD Happy Meal and she can't stop using the mic and sang all the nursery rhymes...and she happily sang 'Aku Cintaaaa...' depan her Abah..and Abah said, 'lagu apa Dania nanyi ni, abah tak ajar pon..sapa ajar Dania nanyi lagu ni..and Dania replied 'Aisyah'...(Aisyah is one of her friend at nursery)..macam2 budak sekarang ni..:)

Hidup ku sungguh meriah...

Despite of knowing my repeat MRI was on the following day after KT trip, it never stops me to enjoy myself..The trip indeed was a good one, full of fun but it's too short..

We went to Taman Tamadun Islam, Masjid Kristal, Pasar Payang, ICT at Teluk Ketapang, Kg Losong, and I'm so rajin to join KT branch morning meeting..:)..Dania had her swimming action at the hotel, and left some mark after 2x jatuh at Taman Tamadun Islam..

So, Next trip is to Bukit Merah Lake Town Resort...:)

I had my repeat MRI last Monday, and did not sibuk to baca the radiologist remark until just now.I heard Kak Jamiliah told me the summary will be shared during my consultancy with Dr Kumar.Tapi they gv me the summary for early preparation agaknye..:)

It says a lot of things.Ada measurement which I believe the rumor size...1.8x1.5x1cm..
But yg bestnye it also states that 'left occipital region lesion possible recurrence of meningioma.'
The last 4 words mmg faham..
Hmm..so i guess i should not wait any longer and I will opt for radiation therapy.
Meningioma itu adalah salah satu type benign tumor.Brain tumor ni ada more than 120 types..Check out this sites.

I have a lot of things to do and to think..
While I'm in hospital nanti, sila jenguk2 Dania eh?

My 3 angels

Hari ini I learn something precious from Kak Emmy..
It was hard to learn that one of my colleagues in my office and she is so close to me, had lost long waiting baby due to misabortion..but she looks okay and the lab test result shows that she had virus infection in her blood that caused the fetus stop growing.
Kak Emmy told her that there would be an angel waiting for her in heaven..

Today, Kak Emmy shows me one of the hadis which said

'Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda: “tidaklah dua orang muslim (suami isteri) yg ditimpa kematian 3 orang anaknya yg belum baligh kecuali Allah memasukkan kedua nya kedalam syurgaNya dgn keutamaan dan rahmatNya.” Lebih lanjut rasulullah S.A.W bersabda, “Dan mereka berada di depan pintu dari pintu2 syurga, kmdn dikatakan kpd mereka: ‘masuklah kalian ke dlm syurga.’ Mereka menjawab: ‘kami tidak akan masuk hingga kedua orang tua kami datang.’ Lalu dikatakan kpd mereka: ‘masuklah kaloan semua ke dlm syurga bersama bapa dan ibu kalian dgn keutamaan Allah dan rahmatNya.” (riwayat an-nasa’ie dan al-baihaqi)

Dari Abu Said Al-Khudri, Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda: “wanita mana saja yg ditimpa kematian 3 orang anaknya menjadikannya sbg tabir penghalang baginya masuk ke dlm neraka. Seorang wanita bertanya, ‘bagaimana pula dgn 2 org anak?’ Baginda S.A.W menjawab, ‘Juga dua orang anak.’ (Riwayat bukhari, muslim dan al-baihaqi)...'

It really reminds me of my 3 angels..I still remember their face esp the last two who were almost completed foetus..I'm so lucky I got to see all of them during my sleep after went out from 10 hours surgery..they are so cheerful to see me but they do not want me to come close to them..The place is so white, with white flowers, white rivers and fountains..it is so beautiful place, so peaceful and calming..and I still can feel tears coming from my eyes..

I hope I will not forget about them..I will let Dania know about their existence in our lives..I knew that since Dania arrival, I was too busy with my daily routine until I forgotten and passed their departure day..I know they are waiting for me up there and I hope they will patiently wait for us..

My 3 angels, Insya Allah..we will meet again as a family..and I miss you too..:)