It is not the end of the world..

In life, things are unpredictable..one second you can be happy & laugh, another second you might be cry in tears..

When somethings hit you badly, we got angry and we cursed, we break down & cried and some people commit suicide...on the road pon, if somebody did not give signals for turning, drive like a kura-kura or drive like a F1 driver pon, we'll cursed madly..hehe..

Ironically, when my gynea diagnosed my miscarriages are due to incompetent cervix, I did not cried..when seeing Dania's clubfeet at the first time also, I was puzzled but I did not complaint..Then I was diagnosed with brain tumor and need a emergency surgery,I'm still okay and receptive..

Today when entered Dr Kumar's room, I've told him that I've read the radiologist summary and I knew that there is recurrence..He just smiled but he told me 'i've told u so'...He explained my situation he shows us the brain diagram and where is the tumor located..a ah Dania was there too..betul kata Kak Mas, usually when the mummy is sick, the children will be more matured from their age..She sat still, and listened to our conversation..

The tumor is confirmed slightly growing and it grows at the same location..it grows on the blood vein..The radio surgery may not kill the tumor totally, but it helps to stop and reduce it from growing..since the tumor is still small, the radiation is strong enough to focus on the tumor..Surgery is not possible to remove the tumor since it may grow back unless the blood vein is cut and re-attach..and the patient may get stroke..

So the best option is to opt for radiation and after than I'll be monitored every 6 months with MRI..If another 3-4 years the tumor is not growing after the radiation, it can be confirmed that the tumor is no longer grows..With latest technology in radio surgery, it may not need an equipment to make ur head stay still for the laser shoot..but then the hardware & software is not yet arrived at SJMC ..then if that case, my head will drilled with some paku to make my head stay still..tapi he asked me to remind him next Monday to confirm...aku jugak yg kene remind ker? adusss..Tentatively the radiosurgery will be on 17th Dec..

Both Doctors, Dr Kumar & Dr Zurin told me that the cause of brain tumor is unknown..it not caused of what u've hv eaten. ur lifestyle or whatever..betul jugak tuh takkan 3 months old baby pon ada brain tumor..so nasib2 lah..but I feel so blessed having this illness..

Bosan lah citer pasal brain tumor ni....since yesterday, I heard Dania nanyi 'aku cintaaaa' tapi macam dengar tak dengar..Today she got 2 microphones from McD Happy Meal and she can't stop using the mic and sang all the nursery rhymes...and she happily sang 'Aku Cintaaaa...' depan her Abah..and Abah said, 'lagu apa Dania nanyi ni, abah tak ajar pon..sapa ajar Dania nanyi lagu ni..and Dania replied 'Aisyah'...(Aisyah is one of her friend at nursery)..macam2 budak sekarang ni..:)

Hidup ku sungguh meriah...

Despite of knowing my repeat MRI was on the following day after KT trip, it never stops me to enjoy myself..The trip indeed was a good one, full of fun but it's too short..

We went to Taman Tamadun Islam, Masjid Kristal, Pasar Payang, ICT at Teluk Ketapang, Kg Losong, and I'm so rajin to join KT branch morning meeting..:)..Dania had her swimming action at the hotel, and left some mark after 2x jatuh at Taman Tamadun Islam..

So, Next trip is to Bukit Merah Lake Town Resort...:)

I had my repeat MRI last Monday, and did not sibuk to baca the radiologist remark until just now.I heard Kak Jamiliah told me the summary will be shared during my consultancy with Dr Kumar.Tapi they gv me the summary for early preparation agaknye..:)

It says a lot of things.Ada measurement which I believe the rumor size...1.8x1.5x1cm..
But yg bestnye it also states that 'left occipital region lesion possible recurrence of meningioma.'
The last 4 words mmg faham..
Hmm..so i guess i should not wait any longer and I will opt for radiation therapy.
Meningioma itu adalah salah satu type benign tumor.Brain tumor ni ada more than 120 types..Check out this sites.

I have a lot of things to do and to think..
While I'm in hospital nanti, sila jenguk2 Dania eh?

My 3 angels

Hari ini I learn something precious from Kak Emmy..
It was hard to learn that one of my colleagues in my office and she is so close to me, had lost long waiting baby due to misabortion..but she looks okay and the lab test result shows that she had virus infection in her blood that caused the fetus stop growing.
Kak Emmy told her that there would be an angel waiting for her in heaven..

Today, Kak Emmy shows me one of the hadis which said

'Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda: “tidaklah dua orang muslim (suami isteri) yg ditimpa kematian 3 orang anaknya yg belum baligh kecuali Allah memasukkan kedua nya kedalam syurgaNya dgn keutamaan dan rahmatNya.” Lebih lanjut rasulullah S.A.W bersabda, “Dan mereka berada di depan pintu dari pintu2 syurga, kmdn dikatakan kpd mereka: ‘masuklah kalian ke dlm syurga.’ Mereka menjawab: ‘kami tidak akan masuk hingga kedua orang tua kami datang.’ Lalu dikatakan kpd mereka: ‘masuklah kaloan semua ke dlm syurga bersama bapa dan ibu kalian dgn keutamaan Allah dan rahmatNya.” (riwayat an-nasa’ie dan al-baihaqi)

Dari Abu Said Al-Khudri, Rasulullah S.A.W bersabda: “wanita mana saja yg ditimpa kematian 3 orang anaknya menjadikannya sbg tabir penghalang baginya masuk ke dlm neraka. Seorang wanita bertanya, ‘bagaimana pula dgn 2 org anak?’ Baginda S.A.W menjawab, ‘Juga dua orang anak.’ (Riwayat bukhari, muslim dan al-baihaqi)...'

It really reminds me of my 3 angels..I still remember their face esp the last two who were almost completed foetus..I'm so lucky I got to see all of them during my sleep after went out from 10 hours surgery..they are so cheerful to see me but they do not want me to come close to them..The place is so white, with white flowers, white rivers and fountains..it is so beautiful place, so peaceful and calming..and I still can feel tears coming from my eyes..

I hope I will not forget about them..I will let Dania know about their existence in our lives..I knew that since Dania arrival, I was too busy with my daily routine until I forgotten and passed their departure day..I know they are waiting for me up there and I hope they will patiently wait for us..

My 3 angels, Insya Allah..we will meet again as a family..and I miss you too..:)

This is It...

I've never been his fan when he is still alive..
But I was grown up with his songs, his life stories, controversies and all..
I adore his music & video clips but shame on me, I do not own any of his album..
I only know the chorus when come to his lyrics..
Most importantly I never believed on his sex scandal..
I know that he was used by greedy people who wants his money and share his fame..

Today, I was so excited to watch ThiS iS iT movie..a movie dedicates to MJ's fan..managed to book the movie a week before it's opening..
Wowwww, I was amazed with his passion towards giving his best for his fan although it just a rehearsal..
He is so soft spoken and surrounded with peoples who love to work with him..
Agreed with his crew that he is perfectionist and know what he wants..
He went to dancer's audition, pick his main dancers and inspires his crews to work together and show their best talent...
He is so humble and he let everyone on the stage show their best talent and let them steal the spot light..
He know what he wants and he know his music, & the rhythm so well..
I can feel the heat of his dance, his tunes and his spirits..
But then again, when u look at him he was so skinny, sometimes ypu would noticed that he lost his breathe..

Go watch MJ movie..It just like watching a concert..a concert that you won't believed that MJ is no longer with us..

Michael, may u rest in peace..and I want to borrow ur usual quotes; 'God Bless you'..:)

Pokok duit-duit

I think i need to plan pokok duit-duit so that when I've problem with money, I can always petik the daun..:) haha just kidding..

It starts with our tv gabak..rosak during watching Raya show..then our autogate....the left side of gate motor need to be replaced..then,one of our fridge shelf dah nak pecah..itu okay lah since I managed to order the replacement, then ultimately the pink lenova totally hancus when Dania fell down and accidentally sat on it..:)


What can I say? hmm..Yesterday I got myself a replacement of the broken netbook, another pink but this time it's HP mini..today our autogate got fixed, we changed both left and right motor..after that we've joined my other half to get a replacement of the tv gabak..it takes for a month for him to decide whether there would be a replacement or repair would be just fine..rasanya tv gabak tuh merajuk sebab we all selalu berangan nak beli LCD tv or Plasma tv..:)upcoming match with Liverpool would be so much fun with the slimmer tv..hehe...
Within 2 days, more than 5 grant has gone...bonus pon belum tentu dapat dah belanja sakan...plan nak gi GC next year ditangguhkan lah kot..

Thank you to my 15' tv (wedding's gift), your understanding and cooperation are highly appreciated. Eh not to forgot lah, Dania's dvd also rosak..hmm..later eh ganti..laptop n tv kecik kan ada..:)

I should say alhamdullilah, Allah permudahkan the replacement..:)

Penatnye raya..

how was ur raya?

I've drafted an entry to describe my raya..tapi it is too lengthy..so this is the summary..

Our raya was fun..Dania had her 'dapat lima'..she accept duit raya then she throw away or she take out the money and give it to me..'mama, ponya?'..she is too small to understand..went to Selayang (mlm raya) - Kemuning - Ampangan - Pulai - Gombak - PH - Selayang ..the list goes on and on..Dania got her first Baju Kebaya from her uncle..


I've registered my Haj with TH..our turn will be on year 2027 and I will be 50 when my turns come..hidup lagik ker time tuh?..hmm..insya allah maybe I will appeal to make it earlier..

what else? oh ya i've initiated PoTLuck for my non-muslim friends...the turn up was so over-whelming..and the food was so delicious..I've made Mak Tok Laksa Johor (my best friend's granny) and the Japanese bosses love it and tak cukop..:(..aku rasa mmg kene bebtul ikut resepi maktok kalau nak sedap..and not to forget 'dengan kasih sayang'..:)

For the 1st time after 8 years working in Toyota, I've celebrated my birthday with my friends in office.Another cake cutting during PotLuck and luncheon on that day itself.

Open houses are everywhere..puasa sebulan so open houses pon sebulan..:) yesterday itself pon i went to 4 houses (Kuang - Subang Permai - Rawang - TTDI)..yang kat Nilai tuh memang x sempat..


Oh ya My chairman is back for good..picked her up on 30th Sep night..and she spent about 6 days at my house just to ulang-alik to Putrajaya to get her posting..finally she decided to pick Sains Rembau as her next school..

During her day at PH, I managed to influence her to buy Vios Jimat..it was so amazing that I managed to get the stock within few hours of hunting (fyi : the car is 2.5 months waiting period)..she signed order on the next day, paid deposit..the next day she went to her old school to get her pay slip and fax to the financier..i called my associates in the bank & explained her situation bla bla bla and next few hours the loan got approved..paid another balance of downpayment..and tadaaa..she got the car within 5 working days...:)..yelah pon dah almost 4 years pon test drive..:)

Ok chairman, pls show up your brand new car..:)..

Syawal

Ramadhan is gone..

Finally, it's here..

SeLaMaT HarI RaYa AiDiLFiTrI & MaaF Zahir BaTiN, kepada semua kawan2 jauh dan dekat, kenalan2 dari clubfoot blog, dan my blog readers...


-Ina, Imran & D. Insyirah

Syawal datang lagi..

At personal note, this Ramadhan is better than previous one..I still didn't managed to do any terawih since Dania arrival but I managed to tadarus..If I'm still breathing for the next Ramadhan, I will definitely improve my tajwid and try to qatam..Insya-Allah..

The last week ramadhan was very hectic week for me..new panel bankers did not met our expectation on following our benchmark. I had to re-coach, and retrain their IT specialist & also my business associates on loan disbursement through HP Link Up. We had brainstorming session for 2010 Business Plan. My HOD announced reshuffling within our Division. Again he offered me the ,hot seat' but I told him that I need to stress free and I want to live longer..hehe..Frankly at this moment, I don't need any promotion but salary adjustment would helps..:)

Some of my friends will get their job rotation and most likely I would do the same task. Panjang jodoh aku dengan bankers ni..:(

I believed some of you already started packing for balik kampung...hehe

This week, I've received 5 beautiful hampers from my bankers & our dealers..received few more Raya cards..a lot of festive emails ..not inclusive of sms which I believed will start very very soon..I managed to send my car to service through walk-in....I've collected my Raya cookies, angpow envelopes, and hubby finally bought his baju melayu..washed baju raya..tiring eh??

Still sad, Ramadhan is leaving..

The 3rd week of Ramadhan..

aduss..cepatnye masa berlalu..

Apsal ek this year I did not receive any hampers from my bankers? hahaha..No iftar invitation pon..semua merajuk..:p

Oh ye, we got advance bonus, tak banyak but boleh lah..:) Bukan nak buat kenduri pon kan for this raya..enough for raya groceries, duit raya and makan-makan..:)

Dania woke up for Sahur few times...tapi dia bukan nak makan but nak tengok tv..

We solved one KFC picture puzzle for 1st time as family..Dania supposed to get Sponge Bob from Chicky Meal but stock dah habis..so she is so excited to do this puzzle...alahai bukan pandai pon..tapi bile puzzle dah siap, siap baring atas puzzle..lerr

We had iftar at IOI Mall, Subang Parade, Kemuning, merata..Done with our Raya groceries shopping at Carrefour..what else?.. I will hv my raya cookies next week..Duit Raya dah tukar, sampul raya dah dapat..hmm...BAJU MELAYU abah Dania tak beli lagik!!!!..:p

Pandaikan orang2 ni letak free gifts kat Kiddie Meal..isk isk..Si kenit has started singing Sudirman raya song ..'alik apong..alik apong...OoOoo'..balik kampung mano tuh?

btw I'm still struggling nak habiskan quran ni..ramadhan dah nak habis ni Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

The end of 2nd week of Ramadhan...

Nothing much to story but We had long weekend again..

On Tuesday, I'm down to vomiting..No, I'm not pregnant but salah minum kot..muntah tak hengat but malam tuh I was so sick and the half not at home..at that time I was thinking to call ambulans..

Office is just the same...sickening..we didn't achieve our target last month..short of couple of units..So no makan2 for celebration..hehe

Dania down to fever on Thursday nite but she is okay on Friday morning. But nursery called me to inform that Dania is having fever, vomiting, restless, coughing non stop etc..I rushed back to take her home..With current situation of H1N1, I can't afford to wait until 6pm to bring her home..

Doctor advised if Dania is still at 38'C in the next morning, she need to do H1N1 test. Luckily she is not. Alhamdullilah. She is back to normal temperature 4 hours after our meeting with GP.

She is still coughing but lesser..


Yesterday night, she had her 1st fire crackers..:)..at Achik's house..Pandai main mercun 'pop' jugak..

Adorable..

Sibuk sembahyang & recites Allahuakbar whenever I do my prayers & reciting Quran...

Pandai recites bismillah & amin..:)..

She had her 1st telekung bought from Bandung..:)

Dania, I just want you to be true muslimah, insya allah..I will guide you as much as possible..

First week of Ramadhan..

Errr we are in the 2nd week kan? Hmm..backdated posting..

My 1st week Ramadhan was good..sleepy on the 1st day at work..office starts at 7.45am and going home at 5.00pm...jammed bumper to bumper..;p

I had my 1st Iftar at hotel organised by one of our Panel Insurance at PJ Hilton..The spread was good as expected..the new Japanese Guy who will be responsible to our company account is so handsome..btw he is married with 2 kids..I started my iftar with tempura..oohh i miss real tempura when we were in Japan..the Tokyo Eki tempura is the besttt!!

My st iftar with office mate was at Swensens, Subang Parade..Frankly I never like Swensens food or even their ice-cream..but since Swensens is my ex-colleague all-time favourite, so I have no say..No food photo taken coz we were so hungry but we managed to take group photo itupon not so clear...



Nampak sgt I was hungry kan?

Yesterday, PH hosted annual Iftar for Chi's clan...Initial proposed menu was western food and at the end we back to basic..we had Rice and superb dishes e.g. Sotong tepung, Paprik Ayam, Vege Soup, Sup Tulang, Sambal Belacan, Ulam, Lasagna, Kueh Mueh...

One for the book...

Selamat Beribadah!!

Dulu Lain Sekarang lain

A year ago...



Last month..




The good thing is, after only one ride, she is so satisfied and she waved at the machine goodbye..:)

Ramadhan

hmm..today is 1st day of Ramadhan but tomorrow will be my 1st day of fasting...

Tadik petang baca Nona 'Ramadhan issue', I read about this author's article on her recent visit to Mecca & Medina..and I almost asleep after reading the article..

While feeling so sleepy tetiba rasa sebak sebab..my first visit to these 2 places was with my mum...When I look at the Masjid Nabawi picture in the magazine, I remember how she walked so fast from our hotel to the mosque for our Subuh prayers..That time, I can see her happiest face, and she can't stop smiling.. I think I miss her a lot and I miss these 2 places too..petang tadik I was thinking I'm gonna miss her a lot if she is no longer around...

And i fell asleep while Dania is still watching tv..suddenly my hubby wakes me up bcoz my phone is ringing..you know what? my mum's calling..she asked me what is my menu for breaking fast..she said she cooks rendang, sup tulang, meehun, fried rice, kueh cara and a lot more...

Apsal ye I think it would be the last Ramadhan with my mum?
Is it me? or her?

Anyway, Salam Ramadhan to all readers, Maaf Zahir & Batin...:)

The 8th Bangkok trip experience

We brought my mum along this time..last time she said she wanted to meet Dr Amnuay..2 weeks before the trip, I've called her to asked how she wants to go to LCCT..she said she do not sure until a day before the flight day..I thought she want to change her mind..yelah kan with H1N1 thingy, Ijai newborn due is on 8th (but delivered on 10th), maybe a lot of things in her mind..

Bangkok is still the same but we're still excited since we're going to spend about 4 days exploring the city..

How do you feel when u see ur mum that u knew was quite strong to walk around few shopping malls, shops outlets, and walks for miles, but now can not even button her maxi blouse, too weak to open the water tap, can not even walk for 2 hours?

It was so sad to see my mum to weak to do anything which she likes most..last time she loves window shopping, she loves to buy shoes & clothing, sekarang nak pakai kasut pon tak dapat pakai sendiri..

She keep telling me that she is ok, the blood test was ok, the urine etc etc all seems okay..but I personally think that half of her body (left side) is slowly fading...

We brought her to Chaktuchak market on Sunday but only for an hour walk, she seems so tired..I told her I just want to buy Thai silk..after we found the silk stall,choose the color,bargain for best price, then we pay and then we go to BTS Station...Oh ya we took TukTuk to Chaktuchak..and mum told me that she don't want to take TukTuk anymore..:)..went straight to Siam Paragon for Lunch, left my hubby to continue his shopping, three of us went to Hotel.I told her on Monday we go for spa..I saw her face smiling after hours of walking...we bathed, and take our nap until 5..

U know almost everyday we bought Beriyani for her..so u know how do I get this rice craving when I go for travel..hahaha

On Monday, we left her alone in the hotel for her to rest..we went to Platinum Mall (just walking distance) & some other shipping malls nearby...

My mum amazed with Bumrungrad facilities,the ambiance and the hospitality..The Orthopedic centre has moved to the new building..very corporate look and Dania follow up treatment & Xray only cost us RM178.

Today I am on EL.My mum looked worry since we arrived yesterday..She told me that my SIL just delivered a baby boy and now waiting for her to come home..my SIL mum is also sick and that's y she chose to stay in Seremban..but my mum is not well too..

Ijai is always my mum favourite's since young he did not oppose her words, he has been with my mum for so long since he out of the job for years..No, actually I don't care at all of not getting to be my mum favourite pon, but the thing is my mum is also sick..she can't even pick her own cloth from the floor, what do u expect from her?You can't expect her to assist on confinement..my mum told me Ijai asked her to cook for his wife..banyak cikadak!!

Kakti, mak kata she must give extra attention to others since she knew we can handle it all..I told her it is not fair but mak cakap things seems worked very well with us but not them...then I told her, it's up to her..but if they take advantages and make your condition become worst, I will kill them..:)..

Bunyi mmg ganas..but I dont bloody care..

The Journey to JB-Pagoh-Muar-Tangkak-PHeights

I missed last reunion held at Bangi..tahun biler ek Zetty?..some where during my confinement of 2nd miscarriage..planned to go but I can't..



This time, it was held in Thistle Hotel, JB...I will never miss this reunion again, it would never be any for me, who knows kan?So with my other half & dania, we are heading to South!!


The journey to South was smooth, with GPS, we finally check-in at Mutiara Hotel, this is where we stayed for a night..the room not so grand but we've got deluxe room using my corporate rate..can't wait to go to Thistle Hotel..

We reached at Thistle, Yan greet us, went straight to the restaurant..Meet Zetty, Zid, Meg..The guys went to surau so we went for prayers first..

The reunion begins with eat session (we supposed to have our tahlil but our appointed leader went missing), btw the food was so nice, dessert was so lovely (si kenit makan strawberries ajek okay), the soup, the bbq..wowww...chatting, laughing, flashback..how i miss the old days!!!...

The attendance was not so great, but yang datang pon dah cover almost of my colleagues when we were back in SMSMr...we will try some other time..tunggu Zetty ker Seha ker Abie ker kawin, sure lagi meriah..:)

Saya bangga bersekolah di SMSMr..:)..Dipimpin utk memimpin...



One for the book..

She did it..

Yesterday was my other half birthday..I took half day and ask him to decide whether to watch Transformer with me or Ice Age 3 with 'us'..us means with Dania along..

So we met up at TGV Sunway Pyramid...We queued and we've got seated at 5th row from screen...dokek bonar..I was assuming when the Dinosaur appear, Dania will be screaming & cried since she didn't like ugly faces...
Wrong mama, wrong...

She sat still until the movie ends..She enjoyed the movie and she even interacts with the characters..she said 'lariii cepattttt' and she laughed when all of us laughing...anyway, we knew she loves animals but we were so scared that she will scream of the dinosaurs...but she didn't...

Ohh..she makes me proud..Ice Age 3 is her first cinema movie at the age of 2 years and 3 months..

Acik, there will be more to go, nanti kita gi sama2..kid's ticket is RM6, cheap eh?belanja tau..:p

Month end closing...arghh

No, I don't do account closing but come month end, I need to chase the bankers for LoU issuance..get scolded for any delay of approval or disbursement..scream for numbers..at the end of the day, sales target achieved..rasa mcm nak muntah darah dah..at the same struggling for next month financing promotion, look at the order banks, order forecast, budget...and plan on how to spend the money..muntah darah jugakkk but this one i like very much...tapi kalau promo tak jalan, memang bertubi2 kene kutuk dek outlets..bile promo jalan takde sapa puji pon? caittt..

Today my Head of Dept, called me and asked about my condition..he even allow me to take a break for a while, take some nap if I feel dizzy or I'm allowed to go home if I feel so tired...huh? I think he little bit concern when I finally screamed at my office mate who was chasing for my promotion ..isk tak sabar2..He maybe scared that I may fainted again..

Hey who said Honda lead us? caiitt Today punya gelabah bebudak ni gi JPJ to verify the news...jauh beza wei except for passenger cars lah..but the time will come, we knew, we knew..:)

Comel budak ni..hahaha..siap ada posing lepas dia perasan I'm capturing her actions..

2nd Opinion..

Yesterday, with a help from one of my Clubfoot circle, we went to see Prof Dr Zurin Adnan, at Damansara Specialist Hospital.

The hospital was so packed, the parking all fulled...so I went straight to Dr Zurin's clinic, leaving Dania & her abah looking for parking. Ramai jugak patient at the his clinic, most of them hv nerve problem and they all look terribly sick and weak. The doctor's assistant was expecting me, and registration went smooth. I thought I was late but she asked me to go makan first since Dr Zurin is at the ward.One thing about KPJ hospital, I love their hospitality and warm service, but then again Bumrungrad is much better and SJMC is the worst..:)

Hmm..Dr Zurin was quite surprised to know that previous tumor size was big and he said Dr Kumar has done a good job on the tumor removal. yelahkan the tumor has compressed the other part of the brain and I'm still alive..:)..He's also agreed that the previous the tumor has grows for at least 4-5 years..if the tumor is malignant, the grow is faster and cancerous...

He said the 'thing' maybe not tumor, maybe only a scar tissue or some membrane left after the operation..Since it is benign, I have an option to wait for another 3-4 months for repeat mri...if it is still there and growing, maybe it is tumor and it should be treated using focus radiation, it is stagnant or disappear, I would be lucky..

I told him that I planned to get pregnant soon but he said during pregnancy the tumor can be bigger due to hormon changes...then I get the radiation treatment, the effects of the treatment is no immediate..then I hv to wait until that it's effective...since the radiation involve X-ray, it should be discussed further with Dr Kumar..

With his detail explanation, the options available, treatment etc, he has comforts me...He seems to be a nice and good doctor..unlike other doctors that I've met, they just act as one...

I will wait for another 3 months to ask Dr Kumar for repeat MRI, then I will decide..

We went home and rest...then we sent Mak balik Seremban..and after maghrib we went to Bangi for dinner...yummyyy..:)


sodapppp!!

HE knew better

Cute kan budak ni??



Yesterday, we went to SJMC to see Dr Kumar to confirm what he has seen from the mri scan. At the same time, I've also scheduled same day appointment with Dato Dr Siti, a gynea for my gynea shopping...hehe...

But dream on...the tumor came back, grows from the same location..since it is so tiny (according to the doctor), so he suggested that I should go for laser treatment to stop the grow..The tumor is located near to blood vein (he also mentioned that that 'thing' attached to blood vein)..Dr Kumar also told us if the blood vein burst, I can be paralysed or dead..sound do pretty scary to me..:)



Kakak Dania & Adik Erina ...

Hmm...what should I say here..I'm expecting this but not la so fast..it was just a year ago that I had the operation..Looks like the tumor loves my brain so much..hehe..How do i feel? Frankly this time I do feel scared a bit..unlike the first one...the laser treatment will cost me RM35K..perghhsss...damn expensive huh?So kawan2, simpan lah duit bebanyak..standby..

The first person that I've told on this shocking news was my lady boss...then of course, I've updated my FB status..straight went home, then went out to Abie house with Dania, meet Shareen, Ek & cutey Erina, then went back home again and sleep...



I had a funny dream..I had a dream where it was flashback to my appointment with Dr Kumar but he said NO tumor and he said you can start planning to get pregnant and see u in one year..Ohhyaa it just a dream..and dream on..



We went to KLCC and had Chillies...Dania had a good time and she ate a lot..Tak sempat okay amek gambar the main dish since we didn't take our lunch yet..So damn hungry..


Dania's meal...





And we loves this starter..apa ntah nama dia..


Am I sad? Yes I am...but redha ajek lah..life goes on..I think I'm going to tell Dr that I will see him in August instead..


This lovely cheeky young lady has to face the truth in her life..If I failed in this 2nd test, I hope she can remember me forever..:)

Peace!