Doa Si Kenit

Waktu ini Kenit dah di awangan mengantuk nak tido...sambil minum susu..

Kenit : Mama, kalau kita dah tua, kita akan mati ker?

Mama : Semua orang akan mati tak kira tua atau muda..

Kenit : Tapi mama tak tua macam nenek pon..Kalau adik dah keluar, mama dah tua belum?

Mama : Kalau Dania dah ada anak sendiri, masa tuh mama dah tua, dah jadik nenek..

Kenit : Ohhh..(macam paham ajek..:p)

Tetiba..

Kenit : Dania taknak mama mati..nanti takde sapa jaga Dania dengan adik..(tetiba air mata kenit mengalir)..

Mama : Dania doa lah mama sihat selalu...
Kenit : (sambil tadah tangan, keluarkan botol susu) Ya Allah, sihatkan Mama, Babah dan Nenek, dapat jaga Dania dengan Adik sampai besar...AMIN!!

Mama : Amin...sambil tepuk dodoikan dia tido(aku pon rasa nak nangis..uhuk uhuk)

Untuk makluman itu standard Doa kenit tetiap hari...semoga dimakbulkan Allah, AMIN!

Alhamdullilah tahun ni i got to go to tarawih..tapi memang mengah2..yang fardhu pon dah sembahyang duduk...

dapat bawak Dania ke surau tapi end up kenit sembahyang fardhu ajek..

lepas tuh dia dah jumpa kawan untuk main, terus lupa diri..

Past few years byk betul alasan tak pergi tarawih walaupon surau PH tuh tak sampai 2 minit ajek..

Kenit pon dah start berlatih bangun sahur during weekend tapi masih gagal puasa penuh..

Dah besar ek anak aku..hehehe

Iftaar Bersama Imran's Family

Err not Hubby's family..but Dania's clubfoot friend..Hadi Imran & his parents invited us to Iftaar at One World Hotel.. comelkan mamat kenit ni..sok sure hensem ni!!

Mr Manager initially was not comfortable with this arrangement but then sebab it has been a year this family wanted to meet us, so we agreed.

Takde gambar makanan but we are so happy to share our experience and we are so happy to see Imran's feet is fully corrected. Tapi One World Cinnamon Coffee House mmg terkenal dengan food galorenya..sila lah try!

We wanted to help every clubfoot child that we knew but sometimes we do understand financial is the most critical factor that makes them hold back.

2 Imran bertemu..:D

We will never stop to assist whenever we can.Hopefully we can see more and more Malaysian's clubfoot is corrected with Ponseti Method.

Ramadhan

Dah 4th Ramadhan pon..

cepatnye masa berlalu, masya allah..

Salam ramadhan al mubarak dari Ina, Imran & Dania..
Semoga amalan, doa, ibadah kita diterima oleh-NYA..
Insya-Allah..

Phonics Reading

I've told u in my recent entry Dania nangis sakan kalau we start to teach her alphabet..
esp kalau Babah ajar, the hurt is more..

Yesterday we only have 1 car since our Altis went to B&P workshop..
So Dania n Babah came to fetch me from office and we went straight to Sg Rasah..
I saw her holding her phonic book..

In a car, I've asked her, Dania dah pandai baca ker?'
Babah says, ehh dia dah pandai baca lah..
I'm so skeptical..I've asked her to read for me.
she reads...perfectly..
Tak puas hati lagi..

At night, after my Isya' prayer, I called her and asked her to read some more..
Again she read out loud and lancar..ada tersekat2 tapi still correct..
Just wondering..I knew Dania had difficulty to remember her alphabet correctly..
Tapi with this book, semua dia boleh ingat..

Kenapa aku x puas hati?
Sebab i can only read at the age of 8 yrs old..
Yelah dulu Standard 1 kan honeymoon year..:D

Eleh babah yesterday pon terdiam dengar anak baca buku..:p

PemBERSIHan Jiwa

Entry ni takde kene mengena dgn BERSIH..tak kuasa ahhh..
Dedua bongok...yg menghalang bongok, yg nak pegi pon sama..
Cuba lihat what happen to Thailand...tak habis2 pasal politics and how their economics get affected because stupidity...

By the way..today we went to Dania's Parent-Teacher's Day.
Dania tanya 'kenapa kene pegi sekolah?'..
biasa after Friday, she is looking forward for weekend..

Today she showed her Class 4 Siddiq..ada 14 students including 3 yrs old..
Her class teacher showed us her report book and some of her workbooks..
A lot of As but she still have Bs on few areas.
Her teacher says she responded well on all lessons, dengar cakap,rajin and good in colouring..
Mmg she says sometimes Dania cepat lupa but she managed to catch up.
She loves to colour one particular object with many colours..katanya colourful, mama..

Takut jugak dia slow sbb kalau mama babah ajar kat rumah memang sampai nangis2..
But then when the teacher says Dania is so obedient n diligently doing her work compare to other 4 yrs old..dah tak risau sangat lah..

I hope she will stay obedient n enjoy her childhood..
Now she progressively learning her ABCs and Alif Ba Ta..
Tapi harini she acts like a teacher pulak, siap pesan jgn nangis klu tak tau..

Alhamdullilah..syukur I'm able to see her 1st progress in school..
Looking forward for more sessions ahead..

Dah nak puasa dah

sedar tak sedar, few more weeks dah nak sambut Ramadhan..
iye, saya belum ganti puasa..
hajat hati nak ganti lepas balik Korea..
tapi lain pulak jadinya..

Rumah x kemas lagi...mmg takyah kemas kot..
baju raya pon x tempah sbb mcm tatau kah nak tempah macam mana..
dania ponya baju kurung pon rasanya beli ajek lah..

Apa theme tahun ni?kononnye nak colour yellow ker chocolate ker..

Hmm...theme tahun ni theme malas...hahaha...
Rasanya mcm malas nak beli beskut raya, kek bagai..
Hmm sirap akan ku beli..kononnye ajak mak ayah semua berkampung kat rumah ni..
Tapi mcm tinggal harapan ajek..
Takpelah..so xde lah busy sebab time tuh pon dah heavy..

Comel tak my tamed tiger??

Bersarangggg

Lamanya tak update blog..takdelah busy sgt tp mcm malas...ni pon update blog kat phone..hehe..

Last June, we all went to JB attending my classmate wedding.She is married to my best friend's classmate when we were in Banting..so sweet, and what small world..Dania is so excited bcoz she has a friend named Sabrina too but she said her 4 yrs old friend is too small to get married..apakahhh??

then we end up jalan2 cari makan in Muar after short pit stop in Kluang (visiting Danials nephew who just born on last May)..ye Dania is already a Makcik before she is born pon..ada lah dalam 12 org rasanya..She warn us not to call her acik but call her, Dania only..cessss

In Muar, we went to Sabak Awor for Seafood Galore itupon byk lauk dah habis, then next morning, we woke up late so we skip hotel breakfast, we went straight for Nasi Beriyani Muara, Asam Pedas, Mee Bandung and tapau Murtabak S'pore..all u can have it in front of my old school..heaven!!!Cuma x jumpa pau maharani ajek..managed to buy manggis, some pisang tanduk n Dania & Babah had a durian..Dania kata nak jadi mcm opet makan durian..yes, she ate 2 slices..confirm bukan ikut aku ni..i told her not to kiss me after eating, dia menjawab haa Babah pon tak boleh cium mama sebab bau durian!!..iskkkk

apa lagik ye? Haaa my job in office is getting kelam kabut..all about HP Act yg ntah haper2..

Haa nanti rajin, gua sambung lagikkk..

Bad Monkey

Haih...

Too many things to tell..yet so little time..
Cerita Dania neneksitter my mum..
Cerita Dania now doing her own house chores..

Cerita my appointment with my Neurosurgeon yg mcm terperanjat I am pregnant..
Cerita my keje kat opis makin lama makin melambak..

Cerita yg tak kesudahan..

Nantilah one day...sekang mengah & penat..

So long

Not that busy but tired..
Gambar kat atas tuh gambar one of Dania's baby sitter from her former nursery.

Kenduri kat Johol, beriya budak ni sms nak sangat we all attend..

Tak sampai hati x pegi since budak2 ni jaga baik Dania for 4 years..

Teringat jasa2 dorang jaga Dania during her casting time, during my illness, and selalu jaga n bagi Dania makan while waiting for mama come & fetch..pernah jemput Dania almost 11pm...tapi budak2 ni tunggu jugak aku balik..mana nak carik taska macam ni??

Terharu rasanya ada adik2 yg sudi nak jaga Dania ni..

Mmg rezeki Dania masuk kat situ..kalaulah ada taska yg macam ni yg nearby rumah baru ..

This taska (Taska Bintang Hatiku) is registered under JKM...mmg renewed every year..

Dania pulak jumpa kawan2 dah buat mcm nursery sendiri.. Budak yg peluk Darwis tuh lah budak yg suka pukul & gigit Dania yg aku tak jadi marah sebab mak ayah dia OKU..:D

Dania & Darwish (anak principal Taska)..Babah tanya ini gambar bofren Dania ker?..malu2 pulak anak aku ni..Tapi dia kata Bofren Dania Acik lah...tapi arini dia ngaku Darwis ni bopren dia pulak..hahaha lawak2..

Till then..

The house is greener

Mr Manager loves green.

He has been observing neighbour's landscape for months and also buying Laman magazine for ideas.

I leave it to him to decide since I do not have much time to worry about that..haha..

So now, our house has green grass after weeks with tanah merah..

Lepas ni Dania kene tolong Babah buang rumput liar...

He loves Gazebo or apa orang panggil tempat santai tuh ..haa Pergola..

We leave some empty spaces for our future small garden ... kekonon nak tanam pokok2 or herbs yg berguna utk masak like chilis, untuk ubat ker like aloe vera, daun pandan ker..

Oh ye that space also he said reserved for bbq area...

So CHIs,pls give us ur available dates!

No serai ye serabut kang nak jaga nanti..tanam kat luar ajek lah heh..

Alangkah bagusnye kalau kami ni rajin tanam our own vegetables kan?

More than you could ever imagine

Yesterday Anesthetic Doctor went through my record and about to get my concern signature for her to start the procedure.

'Mem, you've been through a lot already'

I just smile.

'But I see you moving on, and life goes on.'

Yeah, nothing bothering me.

'You are very positive person.'

Ya Allah, ampuni dosaku, dan permudahkan perjalananku, Amin!

The most thrilled & risky journey begins..

Frankly, I do not like to write about this neither to talk about this..

but I promise there would be a closing entry later..

I'm on my 13th++ weeks pregnancy n counting..

why counting?

I'm in high risk pregnancy..

I got brain tumor, incompetence cervix, high chance of preterm labour, history of spotting episodes and many more...

Unlike others, I do not like to talk about my pregnancy as I choose to refrain myself from being too excited..

It is also doesn't mean that I do not like this pregnancy...

I've been waiting for this moment altho I know that I'm not a tumor-free..

Chances of getting another clubfoot baby is at 30%..but I'm not worry about that..

Quietly excited about this pregnancy would prepare myself for any circumstances..if any..

It is easy for me to let go, If Allah wants it back..

I know I can easily let go for every bad things that happen to me..

But of course, it will forever be in my heart ..it will keep on coming back..

So when people asking me about my pregnancy, I choose to silent myself or just smile & change topic..

I need your silent prayers for me...

I don't need comfort words or hugs..

I've been through this before and this time I will be more than ready..

Semoga Allah permudahkan kandungan ini, anak di dalam kandungan ini dan ibunya...AMIN!

Birthday Party

haih...tiring april..

starts with moving house..

then Dania's 4th Birthday party at nursery..

then housewarming pulak..

Alhamdullilah...all ends well..

Rumah at mess, lunch ready just on time, guest coming in non-stop..

Although ada hiccups, but it's okay..

As long as anak mama happy..

Cranky tak cukop tido plus helium balloon tiba2 terbang..

Heard she asked her friends to call her Jessie..:p

Thank u so much for those who came..

Thank u so much for those who involved with this party plan, preparation & execution..

Thank u so much for helping this OKU.

Life begins in Casa Dania..

We officially move to CD...

Yesterday, we've rented 3 tonnes lorry to bring all big stuff from PH to CD..

Dalam tengah busy pikir which need to transfer and what not, I'm still worried about Dania 1st day at kindie.. Dengan pelat dia, dgn nap time yang berjam2, scheduled eating hours, susu botol lagik, cebok lagik..

I'm on leave today but I'm thinking not to stay in the kindie and I want to let her to make friends with others..

At 6.45am, she still sleepy and tido lambat sebab main game..

mmg nak kene ban ipad ni..

So lepas mandi, she is so excited wearing the kindie tshirt and yesterday night I have briefed her on what to bring for shower, what clothes to wear, where to keep toileteries, wet clothes to put into plastic, susu, botol, drink water & I put aside dua bungkus roti krim for her quick snack..

I've told her it's okay to leave the tudung if panas but if she can maintain, it would be better.

I've told her to ignore if she got teased by nasty friends..you got nothing to lose girl..

I've told her to ask her teacher to make her susu before taking her nap...

I've told this and that..a lot more..macam dia paham pon..

I've even teach for script how to ask for susu, ask for snacks, call for cebok, macam2 lah..

Eh, I'm the one who worried soo much...very much..

Biasalah she is my first child pon and I would want to teach her on my own pon kan..

Sempat main basikal kejap, lepas tuh salam Babah, and pakai 'kudung'..

End up, we leave the house at 7.45am ( lucky I'm on leave)..

so boleh bawak kereta terhegeh2 lagik.. Sempat lagi pesan itu ini..

Kenit pon dengar ajek mama membebel..

We reached the kindie after about 10 minutes driving ( it can be 5 minutes ajek pon)..

Banyak pulak kereta pagi2 ni..

Sampai ajek kindie, she says babai mama, jangan lupa jempit Dania.jemput lambat2 sikit..

Dalam hati aku..huh? bukan main rileks ajek minah ni..aku ajek yg beriya risau..

So, there you go..she makes friends, make herself comfortable at the kindie...

Mama pon dgn senang hatinya, pass her bag, tilam & bantal to the teachers and kiss her goodbye..

Ok, why Islamic Kindergarten?

To train her to become a good khalifah during her young age..

I want her to become a wise person with good character & attitude...

Belajar solat 5 waktu, puasa, iqra', sunnah, hadis, doa..macam2..

I want her to bersyukur and says alhamdullilah every day for all the opportunities given by Allah..

Dlm dunia ni dah tak banyak orang2 baik..tapi kenapa kene jadik jahat pulak..

Tapi biarlah kami mengejar ke jalan kebaikan yg diredhai Allah..

Life is so short, so be good..:D

Academic is also important but later..that one I know how to push..:D

She turns 4 today

Alhamdullilah..

She officially turns 4..Do you know her EDD (Estimate Delivery Date) supposed to be on 16th May, 2007?

Heh...she is so excited for early delivery..

She is so special to me..so precious..

Some of friends asked me to take them as my children, errr...

Are you sure?

You can get scolded almost every day for not doing this and that..

I can just throw your toys straight to dustbin if you can't keep it properly...

I can just scream madly to you if you do not listen to what I've told..

I can just out of my mind...

Sometimes she would asked me, Mama suka marah2 Dania?

Some people says I've given her too much attention...

Some says I teach her to become materialistic too soon..

Some says this and some says that..

But who cares?

I'm nearly not able to witness her 1st birthday..she just 9 months and she almost lost her mom..

Episodes of bleeding when I was carrying her is the most unforgettable memory..

The cerlage, and the pain that I've been through, and ...

I think no one should question how should I raise her..

I will decide on how to celebrate my life with her..

and I know my limit..

Sorry to tell you this..

You do not know how I've built this strength to went through our hard times..

You do not know what was in my mind for every step that I take, every decision that I've to make..

It is not easy but please don't tell me to stay positive or you claim that understand how I felt..

No you don't understand..trust me, you don't..

Now she is 4, Alhamdullilah I'm still here and still with her..

She is my girl and always be..

She is my motivation to live..the love of my life..

Happy 4th Birthday Dania Insyirah..

Mama will always love you till the end of time..

The ending of 1st quarter of 2011

Heh..berkobar2 ada kitchen baru but at the moment I can't even smell the kitchen, laundry pon tak boleh buat...tapi tak turun berat badan pon, naik 2kg per week ada lah..

Tumis pon tak boleh. Yes I'm hooked to any western meal right now.

Goreng2 tak boleh, plain rice or Nasik lemak without sambal is okay..

Kenit was convinced when I told her that if we eat a lot of carrot, you won't end up wearing glasses like Babah & Mama.

But we saw this glass and so tempted to ask her wearing it.Dia pulak cakap macam heri kopter (harry potter)..

countdown to Dania turns 4 years old..heh..

Malasnyee

Washing Machine dah sampai..

Siap pegi survey harga sabun..hahaha

Satu basuhan ajek kene tunggu 2 1/2 hours...mak oiiii lamanya...

Langsir dah siap pasang..Nagoya quality of sewing tak berapa cantik tapi murah..

CCTV & Home Alarm dah siap..touch up balik bende yg kene hacked pon sudahh..

Dekat 20 kotak dah hantar...

Lori pon dah jumpa cuma belum confirm tarikh since Mr Manager ada course kat PD..

KC untuk wet kitchen siap weekend ni..

Esok kene call Kedai Hood & Hob tuh confirm delivery..

Nanti nak kene call Cikgu Sekolah baru Dania to inform Dania would start her kelas on 4th April..

Itu belum siap shopping baju sopan untuk Dania..

Yelahkan dah sekolah Islamic Kindy ni takkan nak dia pakai skirt pendek kot time day care..

Kita pon kene biasakan dia dgn adab2 muslimah if not nanti culture shock pulak..

So takde nak berangan nak perm rambut, colour ker haper ker...

Err Dania masih lg pakai baju size 2 yrs old..hahaha..ponya kedekut nak beli baru..

Believe it or not we don't buy baju Dania except for Raya & musim Bonus..

She should be lucky if one of us pegi travel, and she will get souvenir t-shirt..

Barang-barang besday Dania pon dah sampai sikit2..Kek dah siap tempah 3 bulan yg lepas..hahaha

Weekend ni nak hantar balloon kat Balloon Buzz..n do some booking..

Sugar figurines untuk Toy story sangat mahal so I decided beli Jessie ajek..

The rest I will buy the actual figurines..

Banyak bende kene buat dan saya kepenatan..

Rumah would be halfly cooked when u guys are coming over..

I can't move so much, I can't carry heavy loads, I can't do this and I can't do that..

This year I'm all alone doing HP for my company..:(

Oh No!! It's March already..

This year, time flies faster that I thought...

We are already in March, and I can't even breathe in..

Banyaknye bende nak buatttt...

Another month to Dania's Birthday & Disney On Ice!!!

Dah besar dah anak dara aku...

Dah boleh lipat baju sendiri..lipat dlm her own definition lah kan..

Packing pon belum selesai..

Now tgh busy pasang home alarm & cctv..

Amekkk macam ada sejuta pon kan dlm rumah tuh..

Kehkeh..

Mcm tak rasa ajek April ni will completely move in..kahkahkah..

Takpelah...slow & steady..orang yg menunggu nak menyewa tuh, jenuh lah kot menunggu...

Alahhh org tuh tanya2 ajek kan..bukan dah bayar deposit ponggg..

Few days ago, somebody remind me not to forget on the struggle that I've been through when I was carrying Dania..

She is still my precious..I won't forget that..Insya Allah..

Chinese New Year & Korea

How's your Chinese New Year Holiday?

Mine is great.

We went back to Seremban and had a good time.

Takde gambar bbq pulak..tapi ada gambar Mr Manager tangkap 5 ikan talapia in less than 10 minutes.

This is one of my uncle's fish pond..besar tuh..my dad share ternak ikan talapia, ikan kaloi, & ikan haruan.

Altogether ada 4 big ponds and 1 is in the progress.

My dad pon ada bela kerbau, tapi ni anak dia.sangat garang.

We spent about 2 hours ajek pon (it was so hot and Babah nak gi friday prayers).

Dania had a great time running after Pak Andak's goat, feeding the fish, and trying to catch the hens..

I've told you kan I went to Korea and my friend called it as Winter Sonata Trip.

The snow is already melting. Some places approaching Spring.

Not so many photos captured bcoz the weather is too cold.

Nak keluar tangan pon tak berani..

We managed to visit their old village.

Everland is like a theme park in Jinjang (sorry no offence) but so kelakar until tatau nak beli apa for souvenirs.

Tshirt bodoh pon takde.

The ride is just so-so but I had fun riding their ski buster..itu ajek lah..

We went to Nami Island, the famous Winter Sonata drama shooting place.

I'm not a romantic person, so I don't enjoy this place.But there are many Korean couples were here.

I just can't connect myself with this place.

The 3 hours are so wasting of time but Kak Emmy & me slowly walking & discover the whole island.
Nothing much.

Demn, I miss Miyajima Island.

Last Day in Itaewon, I managed to solat sunat at Seoul Mosque, alhamdullilah.

They do have Islamic pre-school and we've met their teachers.

Group of kids get down from the bus, give hi-5 and salam to us.

Finally, we've met Korean Muslim at this area.

My first photo with the snow (time ni pakai 7 lapis)..:p

Boss, thank you for the trip although I do not enjoy it very much.

Pls do not sent us during winter, It is so cold!

Next time, hantar gi OZ ye..hehehe

The house is almost ready

Before I start to loose my mind,today I want to share with you, that I just lost one of my business colleagues due to brain tumor.

This friend of my mind is working at one of the banks and she is one of those bank officers who really helpful & efficient to us in Toyota. After I had my brain surgery back in 2008, she was consistently asked on my health, how's the treatment, how big is the tumor, how do I cope and how much is the hospital bill. As usual, I'm very responding to her questions without noticing that she is also had same illness. What I remember is, I do reminded her that if she had unusual illness especial severe headache, she need to see doctor for early detection.

On last year Raya, she was admitted and undergone sessions of radiotherapy & chemotherapy (cancer at beginning stage). Her superior informed me that she looks stable and cheerful. I did sms her but I didn't get a reply and I guess she do not want to be disturbed. Therefore, I've decided not to call her as well as she might need more quality with her beloved ones. Last Sunday, her boss sms and informed me that she has passed away. She was in comma after she had 2nd surgery on 9th January. I've understand from her superior that she is supposed to report on duty in early January. But her condition is getting worst and now she is finally going back to by The Greatest Allah earlier than expected...Semoga Arwah Murika Ayu dicucuri rahmat, Al-fatihah...

Hmm...'Casa Dania' is almost ready..Now they are busy installing the grill. I have no idea on how to start packing but I've started panicking ni..hahaha..

Did I tell u that I'm going to Korea? I'm neither a fan of this Korea thingy nor winter. Yes I do want to play with the snow but not in Korea..:p..This trip is called 'Appreciation trip' of 2010 Sales Achievement.I've decided to join the trip invitation 'cause I think I've worked so hard for the company (hahaha perasan weiii). Dah orang bagi free trip, pergi ajek lah.. 5D3N ajek pon..I think I will not enjoy this trip as much as HK trip. Next year cuba2 lah pegi OZ ker, Vietnam ker haper ker..adusss..Mr Manager kata ingat murah ker nak jalan time winter?? hehehe..10th yr Anniversary kita pegi Niagara Falls eh darling?time winter tau..hehe

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Ika, semoga roh mu tenang di sana..