Happy 1st Birthday Dhiya!!!!

My glittering star turns 1 today..

Semoga sentiasa melindungimu, mengasihani,merahmatimu, dan menyayangimu amin!..

My 35th Birthday

Proudly announced I am 35 yrs old..

Alhamdulillah..

The life of working mommy

I'm recently busy with last quarter push for company sales..external pull n internal push..it has been 2x already went back home after 8...latest one was after 12 midnite...

This is what i discover when i reached home...sungguh kesian to see my youngest tido terbiar...Mr Manager still jet lag...hmm.

Love of my life

Hati seorang ibu yg masih tidak percaya tapi bersyukur yang Allah masih lagi memberi peluang untuk melihat anaknya membesar di depan mata.

Dari pendiam, pemalu kini menjadi proactive dan berani.

Semoga Allah panjangkan umur mama dengan kesihatan yg baik untuk melihat sendiri 'kakak' berjaya dlm hidup.Amin!

Here I am...

Mr Manager is now in Canada...for 2 weeks...
When I'm writing this, today is the 5th day handling the kids alone....
Dhiya just completed her nebulizer session...hopefully after this, no more for her, please.
She is uncontrollable until the male nurse has been pushed away.
Satu ER kenal baby yg sungguh perkasa ini.
Menjerit non-stop, semua org rasa nak terpelanting.
Cukup lah tuh...x larat mama nak buat Dhiya sit still.Her body is so padat & solid.Rasa mcm nak terbalik pon ada.
Sihatkan lah anak2 mama..amin!

Me and my mum on Aidilfitri...

My 35th raya with her..insya allah more to come.

Ya Allah..
Yg Maha mengetahui segala kejadian..
Yg Maha mengasihani pada hambanye yg sedang sakit...
Yg Maha berkuasa..Yg Maha Satu...

Sembuhkanlah penyakit ibuku.....
Tak tertangguh airmata melihat seksa derita nya...
Anugerahkanlah ibuku kesihatan dan kebahagian di saat2 akhir usianya ini...
Kasihanilah ibu kami Ya Allah...
Dia tidak layak diseksa dan dianiaya begini...
Ya Allah permudahkan saki baki perjalanan hidupnya...
Perkenankanlah doa hamba mu yg kerdil ini..
Amin Ya Allah Amin Ya Rahman Amin Ya Rahim..

Daddy's job....mommies job..

Ada satu budak cina laki kat opis asked his colleague to ikatkan leftover kerepek in d plastuc...he said u do it.mommies job...aku pulak pasang telingalah..what mommie job?than what daddies job do?lazy sperm donor?
Then ada pulak menyampuk..children also mommie job, why zarina u look so surprise...again another lazy sperm donor...pandai buat anak pandai jaga lah..apa vangang mommies job daddies job..aku ok ajek kalau children tuh mommie job..kot separate nanti dont ask for child custodion ur ass...hahaha..disini aku emo..

Dalam 20th century ada lg pikir orthodox..keje nak sama..bill pon nak kene sama2 bayar...jaga anak pon nak berkira???

Budak Rambut pacak...

Siapa sangka budak yg lahir dgn rambut byk camni..

Btw.rambutnye dah jatuh sket2.hehe

Testing....

Hmmm i've been looking fwd to update by blog using this notes. ..baru dapat ni...best best!!!!!

Mak oi bersarang....

blog ni sudah lama ku tinggalkan.. cukup busy dgn dunia.. sungguh tidak bagus.. Tapi this year dah start jalan balik.. Dalam pada busy..so far this year has been good to me.. mmg luarbiasa stress level..dah tahap lemas tunggu mati ajek..:p We start our March with Shanghai trip Then Dania's Birthday on 1st April. Then my Melbourne Trip yg takde satu pon gambar yg I've FB.

Sebab this trip is so sensitive pada kawan2 Toyota yg x layak pegi..hmmm till then..ngantuk ni...ZzZZzzz

My dream comes true

Punya setahun kami berdua hidup takde proper wardrobe..

Hubby wants bigger wardrobe but I wanted to have a walk-in wardrobe..

He said the walk-in wardrobe dapat kecik jek...Besar ni je pon the space..

Elehhhh baju dia yg banyak dah boleh buat 5S dah tuh..

Since I'm gonna pay for this wardrobe, so I decided to proceed with my dream..

Taraaaa...my cinonit walk-in closet or wardrobe whateva you name it..

Tak kisah lah, janji walk in..but this wardrobe is much bigger than yg kitaorg installed kat PH.
L shape tuh mana nak dapat?hehehe
Hubby's wood flooring pon dah siap..

Okay, segala yg perlu dibelanja telah dibelanjakan,...ex-gratia pon dah masuk..
Alhamdullilah, rezeki anak2, suami & keluarga...
Next project - dry kitchen, pergola,bilik dania & dhiya, home office, etc etc....panjangnye list..hehe
Saya sungguh puas hati!!!

Thank You 2011, Welcome aboard 2012

We end our 2011 with style...

Newborn arrival 1st vacation & spent almost 2k at 3D2N for out local break-away...hahaha

sea view

Kakak non stop swimming since she knew she able to float with floaties

Before this, she was at sand pool,pretending that she is floating..:p

sofa HRH


Diva kenit officiate the bed, pipi masih labuh...

cepat ajek 2011 berlalu...

Ini hadiah for my family from my 2011 bonus.Got max bonus n max increment.Rupanya ada udang disebalik batu. Yelah kan nothing comes free eh? I was given a leading role in my company most main stream department without a promotion.Means, I got the workload only and not the position. Anyway, I would to declare that my new role is nobody teritory.So, sapa nak gile kuasa, back off!!..hahaha

Happy New Year Everyone!!

Dakwah Halus

Tadika Methodist Mantin.
This is Safiqah kindy.

My dad chose this kindy for her but I will not write on this.

Mak dia pon tak kisah, so apa aku kisahkan??

Lama dah nak citer pasal dakwah halus ni.

In my office I have 2 devoted christian friends.

They are loving, caring, and humble. During free time, I always see one of them reading his Bible.
Tak penah tinggal Sunday prayers. Pernah sekali we had our Recretional Trip in Langkawi, one they flew back home just because tak nak miss his Sunday prayers.
Dorang tahu God is One cuma dorang tak boleh accept Allah is the one.
One of them has an adopted child yang dia ambil dari one of the church in Klang.
In this Church ada service they called it Birth Right.
A shelter place for pregnant women yang belum berkahwin.
She also mentioned that 'Ada budak melayu yang pregnant kat situ'.
She said her church staff ada tanya kat budak tuh that they knew one of the Ustazah who can also take care of them'.
The girl chose to stay in the church.

Kadang kita kene pikir kenapa budak tuh end up nak duduk kat church.
Kenapa dia tak nak pergi ke ustazah.
If she stay there, what happen to the babies?
Will she give to non-muslim parents to adopt?

So Safiqah kat kindy ni esok, akan belajar lagu church??

Fikirkanlah.

Dakwah halus ini dah lama berlaku kerana kesilapan approach kita berdakwah.
Contohnye kat sekolah Dania, Ustazah ajar, jangan minum Coke, jangan pegi Carefour, jangan makan McDonald.
Nanti Orang bukan Islam akan tembak orang Islam..
Orang bukan Islam bunuh orang Islam, bunuh kanak-kanak.
Err apakah?
She just 4 years old.
Seeloknye pendekatan menyayangi & menghormati sesama manusia dengan lebih meluas patut ditekan at this age.
Bukan mengajar budak2 ni membenci at younger age.
Kalau nak berdakwah sekali pon pastikan yang basic tentang Islam itu Indah dan Suci fully accepted by the kids.

Wallahualam.

Cabaran ketika memandikan anak kecil saya

Seperti yg anda semua maklum, kedua2 anak saya kaki tido..

diwarisi dari turun-temurun..:D

Dua2 juga seuka mengamuk untuk amek mood tido..Dhiya sampai 3 jam..

Tapi bile dah tido berjam2..hahaha

So, macam topic diatas, apakah cabaran ketika memandikan anak2 kecil yg kuat tido ini?

Kalau dia baru tido, jangan diganggu..kalau tak sepanjang mandi, dia akan mengamuk & mulut tak berhenti membebel..

Kalau dia dah lama tido hampir 2 jam, dia dah start gerak2 tuh boleh..TAPI kene susukan dulu..

Kalau tak dia akan menggelupur dan mengamuk ketika mandi..

Feeding pon kene full feeding..jgn separuh2, nanti lepas ajek sikat rambut, dia start mengamuk lapar..

Lepas mandi kene cepat keringkan badan dorang dan pakaikan pampers...
Sebabbbb dorang ni suka kentut bunyi meletup2..Dania dulu sebab terpancut poopnye kearah aku..

iskkk..So dgn Dhiya ni kene berhati2 jugak lah..hehe

Oh ya Dania dulu sangat ringan dan jarang mandi sebab bersimen..Dania dulu kitaorg lap ajek..

Dhiya sangat berat dan tetiap hari mandi..

Apakah cabaran ketika memandikan anak kecil anda?

Usaha Tenusu

Breastfeeding...
Time Dania dulu, exclusive BF hanya 2 months ajek then after that campur dengan susu lembu..
Until I got sick, and took painkiller for my headache, I was told to stop BF immediately..
Disebabkan sakit kepala yang amat sangat, I did stop BF and concentrate on susu formula..
Alhamdullilah for these 4 years (touch wood) except for her clubfoot, Dania belum pernah sakit teruk..
Dia serasi dengan susu Enfalac/Enfagrow until 3 years old then we change to Dutch Lady 456..

With Dhiya, takyah target..kalau org lain target for 6 months, 1 year or 2 years..
I dare not..
Target makes me stress but I will try to BF selama mungkin..
Orang lain beli secanggih mungkin breast pump..ada budget so boleh beli yg elok..
Aku takde budget banyak..tapiiii
Aku ada 2 pump..Kenape 2?
Sebab Spectra 3 tuh ponya suction dah x power after 2 weeks guna..
Then I thought my production decreased..tak percaya sebab tuh beli pump lain..
First 2 weeks dgn spectra, 1 session i can pump as much as 7-9oz..both breast..
Sejak suction buat hal..jatuh ker 2-3oz or paling tinggi pon 4oz..
So I bought Avent Single Pump..
Alhamdullilah I got back my 7-9oz dengan hanya one side of the breast..

I got problem with my right breast, mmg heavy production betul..
Dhiya boleh tersedak minum sebab heavy flow..patut dia minum 2mins ajek..
Aku pump pon 2mins=2oz..best Avent ni x rasa sakit langsung..
Cuma bising ajek lah..itupon tolerable..:D

Hmm..less than a month, dah nak masuk opis..
Akan ku bawa pump ke opis...
Harap bawak pump ada hasil..
Sebab December would be most hectic month..
Kalau masa cuti boleh dapat dlm minmum 20oz per day..
Hopefully, paling kurang pon 12oz utk Dhiya minum kat taska (errr dapat ker Dhiya masuk Taska Lemon ni?)

eh set target ni..isk isk...tak kisah lah dpt berapa asal rajin pump..
kene curik masa..takleh bagitau boss nanti dia horny..hahaha
nanti kita citer lagik eh??




dah takde storage ni..punya banyak lebih 200oz, cukup utk 2 weeks ajek pon..

Dhiya @ 1 mth

Mak oi..
Mentang2 dah sebulan..she was so fussy yesterday..
Selalu her routine..5.30am wake up for feeding n tunggu sampai Babah & Kakak Dania kuar rumah until 8am..
Then kene jemur until 8.30am..lepas tuh mandi then feeding then tido sampai Kak Dania balik..
Then after tido- feeding-poo, tido-feeding-poo every 2 hours..

Petang jaga kejap then tido after maghrib continue tido-feeding-poo every 3-4 hours..
senang jaga kenit ni..but jaga Dania lg senang..maybe sebab Dania ni premmie n kurang ada perasaan..:D

On 3rd Nov..takde nampak mcm colic or gas ker haper ker...
Ku baca segala ayat2 suci kot kot ada gangguan ker haper ker..
tapi keep on crying for attention..
Nak dipeluk, didukung..tido pon nak sebelah..adusss..
I lost my patience sampai Dania pon terkejut dr tido..
Dah kene jerit baru kenit terus tido sampai ke pagi..
Hahaha mcm psycho aku ajek marah budak kecik..

Harini dia okay..back to rountine but longer sleeping hours..
So senang sket so that I can spend more time with Dania..

Dania tak gi sekolah sebab Babah dia tak larat nak bangun..

Dhiya Zahirah

Finally we got to finalise Little 'D' name...
Kakak wants her to be named as Mia as she is a fan of Mia Sarah Nasuha.
But then when we checked, Mia has no meaning.
However, we can choose Damia or Damiya..means 'smart or bijaksana'..
But the name is too common..

So, we chose Dhiya Zahirah which means 'Sinaran Berkilauan'..Glowing Glitter ek dlm english, teacher?Ntah lah..

Dhiya Zahirah,
You've been in good in my womb and thank you so much for staying there until 37th weeks...
I did not expect this pregnancy would be so much smoother..
But Alhamdullilah..Allah granted our prayers..
You are my 6th precious gift from Allah but here, you and Kakak Dania will be together through good and bad times..
Stay together, love each other and stay united until your last breathe..
Mama will love you both endlessly...
Kalau dulu ada satu, now I have two pillars as my strength to fight for my life..

Sayang anak-anak mama..:D

Note : okay now, let me finish my confinement days...I need to cut my hair..etc etc..
I need to mentally prepare for December month..
Then I would be more than ready for my next MRI in January..

haa gambar yg kat bawah ni Dhiya, yg gambar kat atas tuh kakak Dania..:p

The arrival of little new 'D'

alhamdulillah..
Finally...the arrival of our pride n joy..

This pregnancy is much smooth than previous one..
Episode of bleeding, trauma still ada..
but we took it easily..tried not to be panicked for every episodes of bleeding..
Cerclage insertion, bleeding,cramps, preterms contraction etc..
We are more than ready than before..
To help me on that, I do less talking about this pregnancy..

We chose the famous Dr Dato Siti as our gynea..
Very calm, patience n soft spoken lady..
Cuma kene faham on how to tackle her hectic schedule..
We acknowledge that we might be spending so much for this baby..
Cerclage insertion/removal, premmie history, emergency etc etc

On the date of arrival, Little D is almost 37 weeks...an achievement for
cervix incompetence patient like me..
Cuma yg x best since 24th weeks, this baby decided to lepak at
breech position..

So we decided for elective csect..tak kisah lah asal baby sihat..:D

Thank u so much 'D' for being so calm in my womb..
Thank u so much to all my friends, families for your prayers..
Thanks to Allah swt, All Mighty who answers all my prayers during this pregnancy..

Thank you everyone..indeed a blessing moment in my life..
Bersyukur kerana Allah tidak putus2 memberi rahmat/hikmah setiap dugaan yang diberiNya..
Alhamdullilah..:D

Almost there...

from ward 377..

Tomorow is the day..
The arrival of little 'D'..

now, i'm gonna miss Dania very much..
I really wanted a sibling for her..
but i think i'm gonna miss her so much..

kenit ni pulak mcm2 pesan before balik tadik..
Mcm mak nenek...pokpekpokpek..
Memula dia sedih tinggalkan mama sorang2..
Lepas tuh start jadik ustazah..
Mama, jgn nangis tau,
Mama, jgn lupa baca bismillah,
Nanti jgn rindu Dania tau...

i hugged her..n kiss her..
my love for u will never fade..never..

so now, little 'D', welcome to our world!!

Being Lazy

Yup...later post gambar raya..dah nak habis raya pon I'm still lazy..

yup, i'm still not due yet..passing 35 weeks..alhamdullilah..
This pregnancy is smoother, less problems & less mc, warded etc..

i expect this baby will be out once i ate my lemang..

I'm still lazy...
Later ada entry penutup..

wish me luck heh..semoga Allah pemudahkan..
Hang on..